Neon Aurora
Rising Star
Hey, everyone! I've just made a few posts here over the past few months, but mostly I've just been lurking and following threads. I thought it was about time to introduce myself and hopefully become part of the Nexus community.
So, where to start? I guess I'll start by saying I'm 18 years old, female. I know, kind of young for a lot of others on this site it seems. But I'm not foolish just because I'm young. Age is just a number. I'm in college, hold a job in management, and I'm mature enough to pay my own bills and support myself. I'm a student in my 3rd semester of college most likely majoring in some kind of biology or medical science, I'm not entirely sure.
I've never tried DMT, at least not in amounts to produce any kind of real experience. However, I'm pretty experienced with the other psychedelics. I have a lot of experience with LSD, mushrooms, 25C-NBOME, MDMA, ketamine, and one trip on allylescaline. Ever since I was introduced to psychedelics, I've always loved them. I'll go as far to say I wouldn't be the person I am today without them. Not only have I learned incredible amount of information about the world and myself through them, but I also think they helped to heal me after I developed some emotional/mental issues from an extremely rough time in my life I went through. They helped me face what happened and accept it. Also, the feeling of connectedness to the universe and unity to all things is priceless. That's always been my favorite thing about psychedelics. I've only had one bad trip in my years of experiences, and that was on mushrooms. I haven't really been able to do them since then. Every time I do, I get very physically sick and have a hard time dealing with the mental and emotional roller coaster they take me on. I haven't taken them for a long time. Mostly I use 25C-NBOME now, but I've been planning to try LSA and mescaline before I attempt DMT.
I've been trying to prepare myself for a DMT trip for a long time now. I want to experience DMT because I'm highly spiritual and the kind of knowledge that can be gained from DMT just intrigues me. Besides that, I feel like this is probably one of the most important things I'll do in my life, not just because of what I'll learn but because of who I am. My entire life, I've always been very shy and timid. I have a lot of fears and phobias and a lot of times it prevents me from doing the things that I want to do. But I've made it my mission to force myself out of my comfort zone and face my fears. I've always had so much trouble coming out of my little comfort bubble, everything makes me anxious and makes me want to retreat. I mean, I used to not even be able to go through a drive-thru to get coffee because I felt too pressured. For me, daily things can just be very stressful and scary. I admire people who are brave and unafraid to do everything in life, and I want to be like that. I've come a long way in the past year or two, though, which is why I feel I'm getting close to being ready for DMT. So, the biggest reason I want to try DMT is because I'm afraid to let go of my reality that extremely and I want to face my fear. I understand that DMT isn't always pleasant. But I don't want it to be anyways. When I experience fear on DMT, I want more than anything to be able to stand up to it and face it instead of running away and hiding from everything like I have done my entire life.
I love learning. I feel like my life is all a big quest to learn everything about this world and spiritualism and life. I find equal value in all kinds of learning. Book learning, learning about life through making mistakes and having experiences, learning about spiritualism through meditation and simple contemplation. Learning is my purpose for being here. Other than learning, I really love animals and nature. I like to describe myself as "Earthy". There's something about beautiful creatures and plants that I just really appreciate. I've always had a lot of animals and at one point I lived in the mountains on a ranch filled with horses, sheep, chickens, rabbits, dogs, cats, and even snakes and lizards and a chinchilla. I really loved it out there. The unity I felt with my horse, the quiet mornings, beautiful sunrises, and the fact that I could see every star in the sky clear as day. And of course, the days spent alone in the trees surrounded by my horse friends. When it snowed and white blanketed every tree, my favorite thing to do was go outside and sit in the middle of it all in the snow and meditate. There's something about the snow that makes me feel so at peace. The pureness of it, how it sparkles in the sun, and how it makes the world around you so utterly quiet. It really was just beautiful up there. However, I moved into the city about 6 months ago to go to college and be with my boyfriend. It's pretty different here in the city. The harsh, artificial lights, the sounds of the city, and above everything, the fact that I don't have all that alone time to sit quietly with my animals. It's not necessarily bad, just.. different. I guess that makes me quite the introvert. Sitting quietly in nature with animals pleases me more than going to a party and socializing. Hopefully that wasn't too off topic. Sometimes I get a little carried away talking about that stuff. =)
I don't really know what else to include that would say much of anything. If I had a DMT experience to share like a lot of others in their introductions, I would. But I don't have one. =) I guess I'll just say that I'm on Nexus to learn and discuss and prepare myself for hyperspace. And then after I've experienced DMT, hopefully I can participate a little more around here.
So.. I hope this was good enough, it's all I really have to say.
So, where to start? I guess I'll start by saying I'm 18 years old, female. I know, kind of young for a lot of others on this site it seems. But I'm not foolish just because I'm young. Age is just a number. I'm in college, hold a job in management, and I'm mature enough to pay my own bills and support myself. I'm a student in my 3rd semester of college most likely majoring in some kind of biology or medical science, I'm not entirely sure.
I've never tried DMT, at least not in amounts to produce any kind of real experience. However, I'm pretty experienced with the other psychedelics. I have a lot of experience with LSD, mushrooms, 25C-NBOME, MDMA, ketamine, and one trip on allylescaline. Ever since I was introduced to psychedelics, I've always loved them. I'll go as far to say I wouldn't be the person I am today without them. Not only have I learned incredible amount of information about the world and myself through them, but I also think they helped to heal me after I developed some emotional/mental issues from an extremely rough time in my life I went through. They helped me face what happened and accept it. Also, the feeling of connectedness to the universe and unity to all things is priceless. That's always been my favorite thing about psychedelics. I've only had one bad trip in my years of experiences, and that was on mushrooms. I haven't really been able to do them since then. Every time I do, I get very physically sick and have a hard time dealing with the mental and emotional roller coaster they take me on. I haven't taken them for a long time. Mostly I use 25C-NBOME now, but I've been planning to try LSA and mescaline before I attempt DMT.
I've been trying to prepare myself for a DMT trip for a long time now. I want to experience DMT because I'm highly spiritual and the kind of knowledge that can be gained from DMT just intrigues me. Besides that, I feel like this is probably one of the most important things I'll do in my life, not just because of what I'll learn but because of who I am. My entire life, I've always been very shy and timid. I have a lot of fears and phobias and a lot of times it prevents me from doing the things that I want to do. But I've made it my mission to force myself out of my comfort zone and face my fears. I've always had so much trouble coming out of my little comfort bubble, everything makes me anxious and makes me want to retreat. I mean, I used to not even be able to go through a drive-thru to get coffee because I felt too pressured. For me, daily things can just be very stressful and scary. I admire people who are brave and unafraid to do everything in life, and I want to be like that. I've come a long way in the past year or two, though, which is why I feel I'm getting close to being ready for DMT. So, the biggest reason I want to try DMT is because I'm afraid to let go of my reality that extremely and I want to face my fear. I understand that DMT isn't always pleasant. But I don't want it to be anyways. When I experience fear on DMT, I want more than anything to be able to stand up to it and face it instead of running away and hiding from everything like I have done my entire life.
I love learning. I feel like my life is all a big quest to learn everything about this world and spiritualism and life. I find equal value in all kinds of learning. Book learning, learning about life through making mistakes and having experiences, learning about spiritualism through meditation and simple contemplation. Learning is my purpose for being here. Other than learning, I really love animals and nature. I like to describe myself as "Earthy". There's something about beautiful creatures and plants that I just really appreciate. I've always had a lot of animals and at one point I lived in the mountains on a ranch filled with horses, sheep, chickens, rabbits, dogs, cats, and even snakes and lizards and a chinchilla. I really loved it out there. The unity I felt with my horse, the quiet mornings, beautiful sunrises, and the fact that I could see every star in the sky clear as day. And of course, the days spent alone in the trees surrounded by my horse friends. When it snowed and white blanketed every tree, my favorite thing to do was go outside and sit in the middle of it all in the snow and meditate. There's something about the snow that makes me feel so at peace. The pureness of it, how it sparkles in the sun, and how it makes the world around you so utterly quiet. It really was just beautiful up there. However, I moved into the city about 6 months ago to go to college and be with my boyfriend. It's pretty different here in the city. The harsh, artificial lights, the sounds of the city, and above everything, the fact that I don't have all that alone time to sit quietly with my animals. It's not necessarily bad, just.. different. I guess that makes me quite the introvert. Sitting quietly in nature with animals pleases me more than going to a party and socializing. Hopefully that wasn't too off topic. Sometimes I get a little carried away talking about that stuff. =)
I don't really know what else to include that would say much of anything. If I had a DMT experience to share like a lot of others in their introductions, I would. But I don't have one. =) I guess I'll just say that I'm on Nexus to learn and discuss and prepare myself for hyperspace. And then after I've experienced DMT, hopefully I can participate a little more around here.
So.. I hope this was good enough, it's all I really have to say.
