Welcome, Michal_R.  I thought that was a superb first post, and one I could relate to 100%. 

I remember three hours after my first breakthrough, taking my 2 year old (at the time) to a gymnastics class for toddlers.  I was so taken aback at having JUST been SO far from EVERYTHING I'd ever known, and then immediately having come back to my day as if nothing substantial had happened.  But I was walking around in a state of amazement, surrounded by 20 2 year olds, unable to recollect concrete detail, but completely and utterly staggered by it. 

Now it's three and a half years (and many breakthroughs) later, and I'm really no closer to understanding this thing than I was that first time out.  I don't look for linear messages, because they're just not part for the deal (for me), but the experience has definitely changed my life and continues to shape my evolution.  I haven't done it in awhile and may or may not ever do it again, but DMT has left an indelible imprint on my brain.

So, please stick around.  This place has been an invaluable comfort for me and a great many others.