Trauma therapist in training & psychonaut saying hi

[onomono42]

Hi everyone
After benefiting from the knowledge and the people in this place many times, I thought I'd sign up here as well.
I have experiences with psychedelics (LSZ, LSA, LSD (and analogues), Psilocybin, Ketamine, MDMA, etc) since my teenage years a decade ago & experience with DMT since 2021. I'm highly fascinated by drugs and their interaction with humans on a pharmacological, chemical & cultural/anthropological level. Since I am learning to become a trauma therapist, I am also very interested in the potential of psychedelics as a tool to aid the treatment of mental health problems. This is also the main reason I want to read & exchange thoughts more on this forum.

In the past, I didn't take enough time to integrate my psychedelic experiences & especially with DMT, I'm not even sure how exactly to integrate these ephemeral & abstract experiences in my day to day life. If you have input on your ways of integrating these experiences feel free to share them with me I am a c-ptsd survivor myself & psychedelics played a big role in my healing process.

Though I've traveled weird places, I still consider my philosophy physicalism, at least that's the closest I can relate to. Or to quote Hamilton Morris 'I avoid mysticism because it does not hold any explanatory value for me. That does not make these experiences any less fascinating or meaningful. Give your mind some credit'.

Have a lovely day
O

 

[Varallo]

Hi there, and welcome

I think you will find that you fit in perfectly.

This recent paper is a great starting point for learning more about the effects of Aya and possible benefits. Its recent and has a great list of 111 references to really dive in.

Science paper - Ayahuasca: pharmacology, safety, and therapeutic effects

A very new paper on the current state of knowledge on the effects of our beloved drugs on various mental health problems. Great list of references to really dive in.

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[🌺🔥🫧]

Wow very exciting! Welcome welcome

What a beautiful musing of yours! I’m looking forward to anything you should share here regarding the topic of wellbeing ~

As far as materialism goes, I recently posted a science musings journal entry here on DMT-Nexus , and would be curious as to your reaction of it! I’m not a scientist myself fyi.

The Neuroscience Musings...

Hey Friends! Here are some random neuroscientific musings of mine from yesterday, presented, in blobulous incoherent fashion! Clues Clues Clues Random interesting tidbit -Dopamine inhibiting COMT, an enzyme responsible for breaking down epinephrine(adrenaline) -Oxytocin stimulating MAO to...

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[NeitherHere]

Hi everyone
After benefiting from the knowledge and the people in this place many times, I thought I'd sign up here as well.
I have experiences with psychedelics (LSZ, LSA, LSD (and analogues), Psilocybin, Ketamine, MDMA, etc) since my teenage years a decade ago & experience with DMT since 2021. I'm highly fascinated by drugs and their interaction with humans on a pharmacological, chemical & cultural/anthropological level. Since I am learning to become a trauma therapist, I am also very interested in the potential of psychedelics as a tool to aid the treatment of mental health problems. This is also the main reason I want to read & exchange thoughts more on this forum.

In the past, I didn't take enough time to integrate my psychedelic experiences & especially with DMT, I'm not even sure how exactly to integrate these ephemeral & abstract experiences in my day to day life. If you have input on your ways of integrating these experiences feel free to share them with me I am a c-ptsd survivor myself & psychedelics played a big role in my healing process.

Though I've traveled weird places, I still consider my philosophy physicalism, at least that's the closest I can relate to. Or to quote Hamilton Morris 'I avoid mysticism because it does not hold any explanatory value for me. That does not make these experiences any less fascinating or meaningful. Give your mind some credit'.

Have a lovely day
O

Welcome home. I think you'll find yourself in great company amongst nexians. Having been down a. Similair route I am glad that you are here. Trauma of the mind is no easy thing to deal with and the prospect of healing in hyperspace is also not something to be taken lightly. It's nice seeing people give where they wish to have received in the past.

It's a pleasure meeting you. If you need any help with anything feel free to reach out. I'm still learning the site but more than willing to help where I might be able to.

~NeitherHere

 

[AstralRoots]

Hi everyone
After benefiting from the knowledge and the people in this place many times, I thought I'd sign up here as well.
I have experiences with psychedelics (LSZ, LSA, LSD (and analogues), Psilocybin, Ketamine, MDMA, etc) since my teenage years a decade ago & experience with DMT since 2021. I'm highly fascinated by drugs and their interaction with humans on a pharmacological, chemical & cultural/anthropological level. Since I am learning to become a trauma therapist, I am also very interested in the potential of psychedelics as a tool to aid the treatment of mental health problems. This is also the main reason I want to read & exchange thoughts more on this forum.

In the past, I didn't take enough time to integrate my psychedelic experiences & especially with DMT, I'm not even sure how exactly to integrate these ephemeral & abstract experiences in my day to day life. If you have input on your ways of integrating these experiences feel free to share them with me I am a c-ptsd survivor myself & psychedelics played a big role in my healing process.

Though I've traveled weird places, I still consider my philosophy physicalism, at least that's the closest I can relate to. Or to quote Hamilton Morris 'I avoid mysticism because it does not hold any explanatory value for me. That does not make these experiences any less fascinating or meaningful. Give your mind some credit'.

Have a lovely day
O

Greetings, thanks for your introduction. Welcome to the forum.

Would you care to share about your journey with cPTSD?

I am also a lover of wisdom, entheogens, and continue to wrestle with cPTSD.

Take care

 

[jason9918991873]

Welcome,i come from taiwan,east asia,the acacia confusa is everywhere in southern taiwan,i wana use acrb tek to solve trauma induce language and emotion memory portion of brain that is damaged to reverse!

 

[onomono42]

Greetings, thanks for your introduction. Welcome to the forum.

Would you care to share about your journey with cPTSD?

I am also a lover of wisdom, entheogens, and continue to wrestle with cPTSD.

Take care

Hi AstralRoots
so I wasn't really aware that I'm traumatised till like 3 years ago, started looking for fixes when I was about 15 and got different diagnosis, sometimes ADHD, sometimes GAD, sometimes good ol depression, but none of it really fit, none of the medications really worked for me, also tend to cope with weed. I was always pretty functional, achieved stuff but struggled a lot with my emotional regulation in relationships & friendships. I'd compare my cptsd to the descriptions of Pete walker: child neglect, being beaten, called names, left alone, gaslit by narcissistic parents, etc. & now having symptoms of having emotional flashbacks in close relationships, choosing people who are emotionally unavailable over people who love me because it feels safer, trust issues, fear of losing loved ones, fear of making mistakes, vague underlying feeling that shit is about to go down soon, invalidating my own experiences, etc. I guess you know the jazz :/

I find psychedelics extremely useful as a reminder that there's such a wonderfully fragile, pure core inside of me that is full of compassion for myself and anything really.. also a great reminder what to aim for in my life, what I'd like my presence to be like more often.

But the real healing work is all outside of these experiences I'd say. (almost ) daily meditation, practising awareness/distancing from emotions but also trusting them, weekly therapy for years, EMDR, healthy boundaries, enough physical activity, breathing exercises. & human connection, I think there's no way around a healthy relationship of some sort to another being where I can make corrective bonding experiences, where I'm valued. For anyone reading this who is too afraid of other humans for now: that's understandable after such experiences, start with a cat, a dog, ... I think some psychedelic enthusiasts forget that these things take time.. a looooong time.. integration, regular practice..

I currently use DMT about once ever 1-2 months after a break of 2 years. Also use LSD microdosing irregularly but more for energy levels, stimulant-like effects, I personally think the benefits are overblown & just another hopeless attempt to reap the benefits of psychedelics without a true psychedelic experience glad for anyone who has success with it though!

Would you mind sharing any of your cptsd story?

 

[🌺🔥🫧]

Wishing you well on your journey! Don’t forget to share with us everything you love, appreciate, enjoy, find mysterious, scary, challenging, etc!!

In being Friends with plants we slowly become them!
Too often we try to ‘use’ these beautiful creatures for healing…

 

[Kobranek]

Welcome to the nexus, you are in good company with opening up with cPTSD. There's a common theme with self medicating with cannabis and psychedelics over the years to try and grasp what is ailing us. Shadow work is no easy feat and have nothing but respect for those who are brave enough to take it head on! I've read a good portion of Pete Walkers book a few years back when my wife and I were going through a separation. Ran into some blocks but am still working through it. Always a work in progress. Some days are two steps forward and one step back while others are one step foward and two steps back.

I look forward to seeing you around the nexus!

 

[AstralRoots]

Hi AstralRoots
so I wasn't really aware that I'm traumatised till like 3 years ago, started looking for fixes when I was about 15 and got different diagnosis, sometimes ADHD, sometimes GAD, sometimes good ol depression, but none of it really fit, none of the medications really worked for me, also tend to cope with weed. I was always pretty functional, achieved stuff but struggled a lot with my emotional regulation in relationships & friendships. I'd compare my cptsd to the descriptions of Pete walker: child neglect, being beaten, called names, left alone, gaslit by narcissistic parents, etc. & now having symptoms of having emotional flashbacks in close relationships, choosing people who are emotionally unavailable over people who love me because it feels safer, trust issues, fear of losing loved ones, fear of making mistakes, vague underlying feeling that shit is about to go down soon, invalidating my own experiences, etc. I guess you know the jazz :/

I find psychedelics extremely useful as a reminder that there's such a wonderfully fragile, pure core inside of me that is full of compassion for myself and anything really.. also a great reminder what to aim for in my life, what I'd like my presence to be like more often.

But the real healing work is all outside of these experiences I'd say. (almost ) daily meditation, practising awareness/distancing from emotions but also trusting them, weekly therapy for years, EMDR, healthy boundaries, enough physical activity, breathing exercises. & human connection, I think there's no way around a healthy relationship of some sort to another being where I can make corrective bonding experiences, where I'm valued. For anyone reading this who is too afraid of other humans for now: that's understandable after such experiences, start with a cat, a dog, ... I think some psychedelic enthusiasts forget that these things take time.. a looooong time.. integration, regular practice..

I currently use DMT about once ever 1-2 months after a break of 2 years. Also use LSD microdosing irregularly but more for energy levels, stimulant-like effects, I personally think the benefits are overblown & just another hopeless attempt to reap the benefits of psychedelics without a true psychedelic experience glad for anyone who has success with it though!

Would you mind sharing any of your cptsd story?

Sure.. I messaged you! Thanks for sharing here.