III. Saturday, January 31st, 2026 - White Room - [no music] - 4/10 intensity
Geometry assumes a room-like structure, creating a sense of being in another space. Entry feels like traversing a corridor similar to stargate sequence; colours, while remaining very typically vivid and varied, give the impression of a black and white scheme. With no music, the rising frequency of the onset is very apparent. The room appears to be constituted of ‘building blocks’, square-like structures that organise themselves in a manner similar to a padded cell. These squares resemble eyes somewhat, with a central dot (or similar feature). There is an impression of observing multiple rooms simultaneously. The structure of these rooms shifts constantly, and the negative space that separates them is black. This negative space, along with the eye-like quality of the blocks, provides a feeling of being observed by black entities with very bright outlines who scurry around and then past me. This feeling is unsettling in quite a very exciting way, and is the first instance of something hinting at entity encounter.
IV. Saturday, January 31st, 2026 - First Breakthrough, Mosque - [Michael Harrison: Just Constellations: No. 1, the Opening Constellation (Summer)] - 6.8/10 intensity
Late Saturday evening, feeling encouraged and excited by the preceding experiences, I muster the courage to take three hearty pulls. Onset is particularly fast, geometry first appears before me in atypically asymmetric fashion. Surprised by this, my curiosity is immediately washed away by awe as all my perception of reality becomes reconfigured in all manner of impossibly complex geometry, which in its very first initial phases could be described as cactus-like (I had purchased a cactus earlier in the day, perhaps influencing or inducing a particular pattern interpretation). Description of this experience is particularly hard to recollect. I am flooded by an onslaught of immeasurably intense positive emotions, and sporadically I can feel my body writhing in pleasure and joy. Bodily sensations and awareness is very scarce if at times seemingly nonexistent, but I completely surrender to the experience without fear. The geometry appears to unfold in a perfectly black space. Eventually, overcome with ecstasy and disbelief, I’m able to open my eyes as they shut wide open in sync with a dramatic gasp for air, as I feel the need to observe what effect open-eyed visuals would have on my perception of ordinary reality. With the scant light making its way through my windows, I gleefully laugh as my room has been transformed into the interior of the most magnificent, jewelled mosque, adorned with mosaic of indescribable beauty and detail. I feel utterly happy and grateful for what I’m experiencing. I focus on my breathing, making an effort to slow down my gasping breath and not allow myself to be overcome by disbelief. I turn to my side against the bed in simultaneous laughter and sobbing, as the notion that I have undergone the most intense and joyous experience of my life, now slowly but surely fading away, fills me with sadness. Eventually my emotions rev down closer to normal, and the thought pops into my head: “this song was definitely the most fantastic choice for this experience.”
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