Substances:
* T 0:00: 200mics LSD
* ~ T 4:00 200mg caapi extract + 75mg DMT-fumarate
Normally I don't write experience reports. Mostly since they don't have that much to gain from since they are very personal and I like a little privacy in my head. This one however was special, special since it involves the combination of different entheogens and special since it brought me deep inside hyperspace.
Like most journeys this journey started the night before, I felt that the next day was a good day to take acid so I told my wife about it. I like to keep my wife updated on my traveling beforehand. When I'm on entheogens I don't like things that give the journey a bad mood, so talk about bad news and playing certain music will not be that good. I also keep her updated as a way of getting consent from her, we both life in the same house and it is nice that both agree on such important matters. My wife understands this and respects this, I'm so lucky to have found her.
In the afternoon, before taking anything, I wend in to the chat and inside the chat there was a good, positive and constructive mood. Quite a few people were on some sort of substance or were planning to. When Enoon mentioned that she would take pharma I thought that this might also be a good time for me to take pharma. Since a few weeks I wanted to take pharma but never found the right mindset for it. There was always something that prevented me from taking it. But with the current mindset it felt it was the right time.
One thing thats important here is that lately I have been experimenting with LSD + DMT. I take LSD and smoke some DMT freebase on certain periods of the acid journey. This has learned me a few things:
1. Smoking DMT on the peak of the acid journey is ok for me but the acid might be too strong so the DMT is partly wasted
2. Smoking DMT on the comedown of acid is gold: I have no anxiety and together with the acid it brings me a more dreamy DMT journey
So this got me into thinking about the combination of acid + pharma. After chatting about this idea my mind was set to try this combination. I prepered 200mg of extracted caapi together with 75mg of DMT-fumarate. I put both of them in about 100ml of a juice that was made from appel, raspberry and pomegranade. I stirred well and let it settle for when I was ready to take it.
At around 6pm I took 200mics of acid. Two drops on a sugarcube. I put the cube under my tongue and took a nice warm shower. Taking a shower relaxes me and it even gives me a micromoment for meditation. It's good to focus the mind before taking entheogens.
After the shower I got on the DMT-Nexus chat again. Had some great chats with people and the acid kicked in pretty nice. After a few hours, it must have been about 4 or 5 hours since I took the acid, I felt that the acid was over it's peak and that the comedown was well on its way. This was the time to take the pharma.
Normally drinking the pharma in orange juice is horrible, the taste is just nasty. I took the hole drink in one big gulp and I noticed that with this new juice it did a very good job at hiding the horrible taste of the harmalas and the DMT-fumarate. It tasted quite ok. Right after drinking the juice I brushed my teeth and wend back to the chat. After about 5-10 minutes I noticed that I saw the typical harmala tracers and I also felt some nausea come up. I noted to myself that this was a fast come up and I took a small piece of ginger and chewed on it, this took away the nausea almost instantly, in the chat we call these small pieces of fresh ginger jokingly: ginger nibbles (TM).
Then about 5 minutes later I noticed that the pharma was kicking in already with a fast pace. I stated to the comforting people in the chat that is was time for me to retreat. I wend to my special travel room and lay down on the bed.
As soon as I was in my bed I felt the pharma kicking in fast, really fast. I felt the visions coming faster and faster. My mind was starting to have trouble processing them all and I wondered in agony how long that would go on. They became more and more and more intense and I couldn't keep it anymore. I stood up from the bed, walked towards the door and stumbled back on the bed in a sitting position. I remember that I looked at the door and that the light from the hallway surrounded the silhouette of the door. I saw fractals apearing but not your normal fractals. These were geometric black holes, dark fractals, making patterns were the light inside it would be gone.
I was now in a state of utter horror and dispair, this was the first time I had a urge to yell for my wife to help me comfort me. I had been through this state of mindset before and every time this happened before I wend into some kind of shock were you sudenly are in a 3rd person state looking at yourself, some kind of escape capsule for the soul, this time that did not happen however and I wonder if the acid, taking away the anxiety, might have prevented this triggers from firing.
I set on the bed with my head down and with all my willpower I somehow managed to go through all of this. Maybe my mind only needed some time to figure out how to deal with this maddness? The visions got beter to deal with and slowly I started to lay down on the bed again, trying not to disturb the new found peace.
The journey then wend in some time travel journey, I lived the lives of all my ancestors, passed my own and wend into the future. I remember that at times I would come by and have my hole face wet from tears. I'm not sure why I had so many tears but I guess this must have been a very cleansing ride.
This then got on for some time and at some point it turned into that well known comforting pharma blanket where the pharma thinks it has done enough for you and that it is time for you to get easy again, to cuddle you back to this world of you and I.
I was still in this nice and dreamy world when I was rudely pulled out of it by my body reminding me that now would be a good time to visit the bathroom. I stood up and like a drunken man I walked to the bathroom, I did my thing to stop that body from complaining so much and then moved on to give my wife a nice and warm hug, I could use it. She comforted me and when I was finished hugging her my lovely cat meowed that is was her time now to cuddle with me and help me integrate into this world again. I wend back to the chat to tell the people I was ok and my lovely cat would stay with me the whole time to comfort me, she's such a joy. I looked at the clock and I was a bit astonished that only two hours had passed since I took the pharma, for me I had been gone for ages.
Now for the lessons learned:
* Acid does take away the anxiety almost completely
* This anxiety removal might have some unknown side effects, it might be that my 'shock triggger' was not pulled because of this
* DMT-fumarate is bloody fast to come up. I think the next time I will try less DMT-fumarate, about 50mg together with 20mg of DMT freebase. I'm hoping that since the freebase is absorbed in a slower rate that this will have some time release effect.
* Apple, raspberry, pomegranate juice is perfect in masking the pharma taste
* Ginger nibbles (TM) work!
* Having your pharma with the harmala freebase in the juice for hours is probably good to make sure it is all turned into good absorbable salts
* Cats rock
Kind regards,
The Traveler
* T 0:00: 200mics LSD
* ~ T 4:00 200mg caapi extract + 75mg DMT-fumarate
Normally I don't write experience reports. Mostly since they don't have that much to gain from since they are very personal and I like a little privacy in my head. This one however was special, special since it involves the combination of different entheogens and special since it brought me deep inside hyperspace.
Like most journeys this journey started the night before, I felt that the next day was a good day to take acid so I told my wife about it. I like to keep my wife updated on my traveling beforehand. When I'm on entheogens I don't like things that give the journey a bad mood, so talk about bad news and playing certain music will not be that good. I also keep her updated as a way of getting consent from her, we both life in the same house and it is nice that both agree on such important matters. My wife understands this and respects this, I'm so lucky to have found her.
In the afternoon, before taking anything, I wend in to the chat and inside the chat there was a good, positive and constructive mood. Quite a few people were on some sort of substance or were planning to. When Enoon mentioned that she would take pharma I thought that this might also be a good time for me to take pharma. Since a few weeks I wanted to take pharma but never found the right mindset for it. There was always something that prevented me from taking it. But with the current mindset it felt it was the right time.
One thing thats important here is that lately I have been experimenting with LSD + DMT. I take LSD and smoke some DMT freebase on certain periods of the acid journey. This has learned me a few things:
1. Smoking DMT on the peak of the acid journey is ok for me but the acid might be too strong so the DMT is partly wasted
2. Smoking DMT on the comedown of acid is gold: I have no anxiety and together with the acid it brings me a more dreamy DMT journey
So this got me into thinking about the combination of acid + pharma. After chatting about this idea my mind was set to try this combination. I prepered 200mg of extracted caapi together with 75mg of DMT-fumarate. I put both of them in about 100ml of a juice that was made from appel, raspberry and pomegranade. I stirred well and let it settle for when I was ready to take it.
At around 6pm I took 200mics of acid. Two drops on a sugarcube. I put the cube under my tongue and took a nice warm shower. Taking a shower relaxes me and it even gives me a micromoment for meditation. It's good to focus the mind before taking entheogens.
After the shower I got on the DMT-Nexus chat again. Had some great chats with people and the acid kicked in pretty nice. After a few hours, it must have been about 4 or 5 hours since I took the acid, I felt that the acid was over it's peak and that the comedown was well on its way. This was the time to take the pharma.
Normally drinking the pharma in orange juice is horrible, the taste is just nasty. I took the hole drink in one big gulp and I noticed that with this new juice it did a very good job at hiding the horrible taste of the harmalas and the DMT-fumarate. It tasted quite ok. Right after drinking the juice I brushed my teeth and wend back to the chat. After about 5-10 minutes I noticed that I saw the typical harmala tracers and I also felt some nausea come up. I noted to myself that this was a fast come up and I took a small piece of ginger and chewed on it, this took away the nausea almost instantly, in the chat we call these small pieces of fresh ginger jokingly: ginger nibbles (TM).
Then about 5 minutes later I noticed that the pharma was kicking in already with a fast pace. I stated to the comforting people in the chat that is was time for me to retreat. I wend to my special travel room and lay down on the bed.
As soon as I was in my bed I felt the pharma kicking in fast, really fast. I felt the visions coming faster and faster. My mind was starting to have trouble processing them all and I wondered in agony how long that would go on. They became more and more and more intense and I couldn't keep it anymore. I stood up from the bed, walked towards the door and stumbled back on the bed in a sitting position. I remember that I looked at the door and that the light from the hallway surrounded the silhouette of the door. I saw fractals apearing but not your normal fractals. These were geometric black holes, dark fractals, making patterns were the light inside it would be gone.
I was now in a state of utter horror and dispair, this was the first time I had a urge to yell for my wife to help me comfort me. I had been through this state of mindset before and every time this happened before I wend into some kind of shock were you sudenly are in a 3rd person state looking at yourself, some kind of escape capsule for the soul, this time that did not happen however and I wonder if the acid, taking away the anxiety, might have prevented this triggers from firing.
I set on the bed with my head down and with all my willpower I somehow managed to go through all of this. Maybe my mind only needed some time to figure out how to deal with this maddness? The visions got beter to deal with and slowly I started to lay down on the bed again, trying not to disturb the new found peace.
The journey then wend in some time travel journey, I lived the lives of all my ancestors, passed my own and wend into the future. I remember that at times I would come by and have my hole face wet from tears. I'm not sure why I had so many tears but I guess this must have been a very cleansing ride.
This then got on for some time and at some point it turned into that well known comforting pharma blanket where the pharma thinks it has done enough for you and that it is time for you to get easy again, to cuddle you back to this world of you and I.
I was still in this nice and dreamy world when I was rudely pulled out of it by my body reminding me that now would be a good time to visit the bathroom. I stood up and like a drunken man I walked to the bathroom, I did my thing to stop that body from complaining so much and then moved on to give my wife a nice and warm hug, I could use it. She comforted me and when I was finished hugging her my lovely cat meowed that is was her time now to cuddle with me and help me integrate into this world again. I wend back to the chat to tell the people I was ok and my lovely cat would stay with me the whole time to comfort me, she's such a joy. I looked at the clock and I was a bit astonished that only two hours had passed since I took the pharma, for me I had been gone for ages.
Now for the lessons learned:
* Acid does take away the anxiety almost completely
* This anxiety removal might have some unknown side effects, it might be that my 'shock triggger' was not pulled because of this
* DMT-fumarate is bloody fast to come up. I think the next time I will try less DMT-fumarate, about 50mg together with 20mg of DMT freebase. I'm hoping that since the freebase is absorbed in a slower rate that this will have some time release effect.
* Apple, raspberry, pomegranate juice is perfect in masking the pharma taste
* Ginger nibbles (TM) work!
* Having your pharma with the harmala freebase in the juice for hours is probably good to make sure it is all turned into good absorbable salts
* Cats rock
Kind regards,
The Traveler