first of all thanks for all those nice ideas!

it turned out that we both fell deeply in love with each other. the first medicine i will use on her is love to the upmost. the next step will be letting her smoke a full breakthrough dose of DMT. After this they will probably have told her what they tell you most of the time: "we don't have much time.. pay attention!". She's scared of drinking ayahuasca because of the purging. She also knows that the purge is part of the mechanism but since she never took anything which made her purge she's afraid. I wouldn't wanna miss out on the purge. Its part of the medicine. I think as a medicine ayahuasca is better than smoked dmt because it gives you more time to work things through. its good to have smoked a breakthrough dose before taking aya tho i think. it lets one get accustomed with that type of experience.

a very good thing has also come out of her having smoked that 15mg dose: a few weeks ago she was all about wanting to take some more acid. at some point this week she had gotten her hands on some. so i asked her when she wants to use it. she told me she wants to save it for a special occasion. before the 15mg session she would have taken it right away with no thoughts at all.

it seems to also have upped her respect for all other psychedelics. she also had a recent 15mg 2ci experience in which she experienced really bad paranoia. it kinda showed her some of the dark places that the mind can take you. i think the more one knows what the mind is capable of, the more one respects psychedelics. she also said that 2ci is something which she would only take VERY rarely if at all. so i guess that even this experience was very beneficial.