SpathiEluder
Rising Star
My first experience with DMT was today, with the Sonoran Desert Toad (5-MeO) and I'm not sure it was like other experiences I have read, but here is mine.
The ceremony was performed by Octavio Rettig. Within seconds of toking the venom I could see Octavios hand and the lighter start to distort, I held in the breath, exhaled, and then I launched. I didn't know if I was standing, crouching or on my back. (apparently I was rolling around quite a bit!)
I could no longer see the environment I was in (bushland), all that I could see was an intensely bright, geometrically patterned orb that commanded my whole vision. It was there through the entire experience, it was electric, pulsing, bright like a million LED's, changing, purging.
I was breathing strong like you are supposed to, in through the nose, out through the mouth as the orb speeds up its pulsing patterns. This went on for a while, fantastic rolling colours and patterns all within the orb structure. The general feeling or subconscious thought took me into some non-distinct thoughts of family, my ego and the internal things that have held me back in my life. I don't think I dug deep enough but the intensity of everything happening showed that I was open and surrendered to the medicine. I feel water going into my mouth, in my nose all over my face, i'm almost choking on it, but it helps purge those thoughts, and the visuals get more fluid in movement. - This is Octavio throwing water over me during the peak (almost water boarding feeling..but not really) - An amazing sensation. After a while of battling some heavy emotions I start to come back around, and Octavio says "He has some more work to do", and has the pipe ready for round two.
I inhale while still hallucinating but able to see the bushland around.
The orb pulses hard again, water is splashing all over me, I'm breathing hard, Octavio is chanting, I feel like im throwing up with my whole body but im not, it just feels like a purge on everything my subconscious brings up and these come from dark spots on the orb which I reach for to confront them fiercly. From somewhere tribal sounds are vibrating through me, the sound of electricity buzzes, drums, powerful chanting, the voices of "come on" "yes, YES" "BREATHE" playing heavy in my head (was Octavio talking?). Everything gets insanely intense and then it all explodes in a cosmic orgasmic blast with silence, but the orb is there and almost freezes in one set pattern, bright, electrifying, and a voice which must have been internal saying something along the lines of "THIS is what they have been hiding from you, This is yours and THIS is what you are !!" It sounded like Octavios voice, but I am told it wasnt. I sit in this space in amazement of its significance and intensity, i feel it in the centre of my stomach and mind, it vibrates. I feel like I have been in a jungle ceremony, but I start to come back to - in the Australian bush land.
Energizing, enlightening and healing. My clothes are completely drenched from Octavio's water methods, and as I look around the surrounding gum trees are swaying, more contrasty, more colourful. Whatever just happened was unexplainable, and I want it again. I feel at peace, the diminished visual effects last for another 20 minutes or so, and I quickly integrate back into reality, very coherent and ready to watch the next patients take their medicine while laying back in nature.
Thank you ! Please let me know if you have had an experiences similar to this. From some light reading online, I havent read a similar Bufo experience. I feel very lucky to have Octavio guide me through this journey, it would have been inconceivable on my own, however knowing someone is there chanting, picking you up, moving your limbs, splashing you with water shows why these ancient healers are gifted the task of guidance and administering.
.......OMFG BRAIN.
The ceremony was performed by Octavio Rettig. Within seconds of toking the venom I could see Octavios hand and the lighter start to distort, I held in the breath, exhaled, and then I launched. I didn't know if I was standing, crouching or on my back. (apparently I was rolling around quite a bit!)
I could no longer see the environment I was in (bushland), all that I could see was an intensely bright, geometrically patterned orb that commanded my whole vision. It was there through the entire experience, it was electric, pulsing, bright like a million LED's, changing, purging.
I was breathing strong like you are supposed to, in through the nose, out through the mouth as the orb speeds up its pulsing patterns. This went on for a while, fantastic rolling colours and patterns all within the orb structure. The general feeling or subconscious thought took me into some non-distinct thoughts of family, my ego and the internal things that have held me back in my life. I don't think I dug deep enough but the intensity of everything happening showed that I was open and surrendered to the medicine. I feel water going into my mouth, in my nose all over my face, i'm almost choking on it, but it helps purge those thoughts, and the visuals get more fluid in movement. - This is Octavio throwing water over me during the peak (almost water boarding feeling..but not really) - An amazing sensation. After a while of battling some heavy emotions I start to come back around, and Octavio says "He has some more work to do", and has the pipe ready for round two.
I inhale while still hallucinating but able to see the bushland around.
The orb pulses hard again, water is splashing all over me, I'm breathing hard, Octavio is chanting, I feel like im throwing up with my whole body but im not, it just feels like a purge on everything my subconscious brings up and these come from dark spots on the orb which I reach for to confront them fiercly. From somewhere tribal sounds are vibrating through me, the sound of electricity buzzes, drums, powerful chanting, the voices of "come on" "yes, YES" "BREATHE" playing heavy in my head (was Octavio talking?). Everything gets insanely intense and then it all explodes in a cosmic orgasmic blast with silence, but the orb is there and almost freezes in one set pattern, bright, electrifying, and a voice which must have been internal saying something along the lines of "THIS is what they have been hiding from you, This is yours and THIS is what you are !!" It sounded like Octavios voice, but I am told it wasnt. I sit in this space in amazement of its significance and intensity, i feel it in the centre of my stomach and mind, it vibrates. I feel like I have been in a jungle ceremony, but I start to come back to - in the Australian bush land.
Energizing, enlightening and healing. My clothes are completely drenched from Octavio's water methods, and as I look around the surrounding gum trees are swaying, more contrasty, more colourful. Whatever just happened was unexplainable, and I want it again. I feel at peace, the diminished visual effects last for another 20 minutes or so, and I quickly integrate back into reality, very coherent and ready to watch the next patients take their medicine while laying back in nature.
Thank you ! Please let me know if you have had an experiences similar to this. From some light reading online, I havent read a similar Bufo experience. I feel very lucky to have Octavio guide me through this journey, it would have been inconceivable on my own, however knowing someone is there chanting, picking you up, moving your limbs, splashing you with water shows why these ancient healers are gifted the task of guidance and administering.
.......OMFG BRAIN.
and being around such expansive coast, water and wildlife was what I needed. 
),kinda the opposite of what i found with 5meo.