pfuhhhh, I wrote this post in a very dark hour of my life and, this really speaks for the nexus, all your answers were very well thought. I hope I did not do any damage to anyone, I will remove the original post because it really is more destructive than helpful.
You are right, it was out of a very egoistic mindset that I wrote this post, to just "save myself". the way to the cessation of suffering truly is very personal.
ego is the cause of ALL suffering, if it is understood and all its delusional tricks are uncovered, when all grasping anger and ignorance end there is freedom.