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BluesforAllah

BluesforAllah

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I am unsure whether to make this essay more fiction than fact. I guess I will say what I can. I graduated from UC Berkeley with a degree in Comparative Literature. In the past 10 years I've had a few chances to smoke DMT but I decided not to because I didn't feel I was ready and I was also scared and unsure of how smoking DMT would help me in my life. I felt that it wouldn't help me so I never tried it. Instead I experimented with Psilocybin, Cannabis, Salvia, and LSD. I had both positive and negative experiences with these substances and learned from those. After graduating I moved back home to live with my family and eventually stopped using Cannabis completely. I started doing Psychotherapy because I suspected I had PTSD from an event that occurred when I was a child which I had come to terms with after a mushroom trip. I underwent and completed Psychotherapy and saw it as a learning experience rather than something exclusively negative or shameful.

The reason why I joined the nexus was because I had had a recent experience in which I thought I was taking LSD but it turned out to be a research chemical known as 25I-NBOMe which I wasn't familiar with at all. In fact I never thought LSD could be faked, I was wrong, again another learning experience. My ingestion of 25i was accidental which made me realize that I should have been more cautious and that I still have a lot to learn in this life. Now in my present situation I am struggling with the meaning of my dreams. I have lucid dreams every night in which I travel thru landscapes and meet people, have conversations with them etc. I have so many lucid dreams that I sometimes am afraid to fall asleep at night. I've been keeping a dream journal which has helped. I know DMT facilitates the dreaming process but I don't really understand what Lucid dreams are.

In some of my most realistic lucid dreams I am offered the chance to smoke DMT but the dream feels so real that I get scared and decide not to smoke it in the dream. Each time I make this decision the dream-character offering it to me either says don't worry about it as if I'm not missing anything or they ask me if I'm sure I don't want to as if I am missing out on something extraordinary. In my mind upon reflection of these dreams I encounter a paradox. If the dream I'm experiencing is being caused by DMT what would happen if I were to answer yes to the question of if I want to smoke DMT in the dream? It's a paradox because why would I need to smoke DMT in the dream if I'm technically at that moment already experiencing it? And if I were to say yes would I start tripping inside the dream? While I don't have these answers yet I hope to know them someday as I continue to learn.
 
there is no current evidence that dreams are caused by dmt. this is just one theory and I think it might even have been debunked by now - not sure. Almost all the theories about dmt and consciousness, dmt and the pinneal etc. are just that: theories - and so far none of them have any scientific evidence speaking for them AFAIK.

You might start tripping in the dream but this trip would be confined to the dream, so once you woke up you would no longer be tripping, nor would have any after effects... at least it would be very strange if you did.

I have tripped several times in my dreams, but taking lsd. I loved it!

Maybe relax a bit on the subject. DMT is not the holy grail or the fountain of youth. It's not the most important thing in the world, so no need to pressure yourself over it. If you want to try it, try it, if not, leave it alone.
 
Welcome to The Nexus!

You'll know if/when you're ready to try. In this world or in the dream world.
Only you can decide.

I think it would be interesting to fall asleep with the intention of trying it in your dreams.

The first time DMT found me, I turned it down. The second time, a good friend held it for me until the time was right. That was almost 4 months later.

Maybe ask the person in your dreams to hold on to it for you till your ready.


Best Wishes and Welcome!
 
People enviornment and self relaxed clarity will couple with respectful desire when the time is right my friend. Peaceful journeys.
 
Enoon said:
there is no current evidence that dreams are caused by dmt. this is just one theory and I think it might even have been debunked by now - not sure. Almost all the theories about dmt and consciousness, dmt and the pinneal etc. are just that: theories - and so far none of them have any scientific evidence speaking for them AFAIK.

You might start tripping in the dream but this trip would be confined to the dream, so once you woke up you would no longer be tripping, nor would have any after effects... at least it would be very strange if you did.

I have tripped several times in my dreams, but taking lsd. I loved it!

Maybe relax a bit on the subject. DMT is not the holy grail or the fountain of youth. It's not the most important thing in the world, so no need to pressure yourself over it. If you want to try it, try it, if not, leave it alone.
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Even if dmt dreams are just a theory I like this theory more than Freud's theory of dreams. Modern psychology will tell you dreams are just the residue of what happened to you during the day, there is not much emphasis on the importance of dreams. As far as the theory having been debunked I don't think it has, anyway wouldn't the debunking of the theory be just another theory?

I'm actually not that crazy about DMT at least I hope I don't seem that I am crazy about it. The main reason why I joined the nexus was to get more information about 25I-NBOMe which I accidentally ingested last week. More information because altho I am fairly certain that is what I ingested I am getting conflicting opinions about it in the nexus chatroom and that feeling of not knowing exactly what I took is bothersome. I posted another thread under the title: "Mysterious Burning Blotter, help?" Someone mentioned that they were fairly certain I had taken a NBOMe chemical and that's how I found out about the existence of that class of chemicals up until that point I thought I had just taken bad acid.
 
BluesforAllah said:
I am unsure whether to make this essay more fiction than fact. I guess I will say what I can. I graduated from UC Berkeley with a degree in Comparative Literature. In the past 10 years I've had a few chances to smoke DMT but I decided not to because I didn't feel I was ready and I was also scared and unsure of how smoking DMT would help me in my life. I felt that it wouldn't help me so I never tried it. Instead I experimented with Psilocybin, Cannabis, Salvia, and LSD. I had both positive and negative experiences with these substances and learned from those. After graduating I moved back home to live with my family and eventually stopped using Cannabis completely. I started doing Psychotherapy because I suspected I had PTSD from an event that occurred when I was a child which I had come to terms with after a mushroom trip. I underwent and completed Psychotherapy and saw it as a learning experience rather than something exclusively negative or shameful.

The reason why I joined the nexus was because I had had a recent experience in which I thought I was taking LSD but it turned out to be a research chemical known as 25I-NBOMe which I wasn't familiar with at all. In fact I never thought LSD could be faked, I was wrong, again another learning experience. My ingestion of 25i was accidental which made me realize that I should have been more cautious and that I still have a lot to learn in this life. Now in my present situation I am struggling with the meaning of my dreams. I have lucid dreams every night in which I travel thru landscapes and meet people, have conversations with them etc. I have so many lucid dreams that I sometimes am afraid to fall asleep at night. I've been keeping a dream journal which has helped. I know DMT facilitates the dreaming process but I don't really understand what Lucid dreams are.

In some of my most realistic lucid dreams I am offered the chance to smoke DMT but the dream feels so real that I get scared and decide not to smoke it in the dream. Each time I make this decision the dream-character offering it to me either says don't worry about it as if I'm not missing anything or they ask me if I'm sure I don't want to as if I am missing out on something extraordinary. In my mind upon reflection of these dreams I encounter a paradox. If the dream I'm experiencing is being caused by DMT what would happen if I were to answer yes to the question of if I want to smoke DMT in the dream? It's a paradox because why would I need to smoke DMT in the dream if I'm technically at that moment already experiencing it? And if I were to say yes would I start tripping inside the dream? While I don't have these answers yet I hope to know them someday as I continue to learn.
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One thing DMT would definitey provide you with....a whole brand spanking new outlook and appriciation for the Grateful Dead's music.....they were one of the first band to smoke DMT and it really shows in their music.........:surprised

pssssst....(they were E.T connected FO SHO....:|....don't tell any one k??)


Take care-
 
by the way I should add that I do not want a full membership. I don't even have one yet and I can barely keep up with this.
 
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