trynottoforgetname
Rising Star
Hello all of DMT Nexus,
I'm 29 and been a long-time advocate of intellectual thought and conversation. I've been a lurker here for quite some time and my interest spawned about 10 years ago with Lucy and Shrooms. I feel that there is so much about life and this world that we cannot understand due to limitations surrounding our environment and our psyche. I can see that many of the followers here in the DMT Nexus community share similar passions and I look forward to spending more time here.
About myself...
- Appreciates Computer Science.
- I deploy VoIP solutions and Call Centers.
- I am a "techie" or a geek basically. I am also learning some development stuff with pything/XML and stuff.
You guys like stories and stuff, yes?
I'll keep you entertained with something then...
I was young, dumb and stupid for many years, following the wrong crowd because of social acceptance. I felt I was destined for so much more, but got stuck in a rut. I felt very few understood me, except for a small handful of people. I wasn't "emo" or depressed, but I yearned for something more. I hated school, and the social groups and people trying so hard to "fit in". Thus, I went behind my computer and monitor and I wasted countless hours, chatting with anonymous on #Shroomery IRC (Internet Relay Chat), and by strange fate, I somehow met the girl of my dreams on a random IRC channel. We chatted all the time, day and night, staying up to 4am, 6am some-times. She was my first love. Someone that I felt knew me 100% and I would consider her my soulmate. Problem was, I was < 18, and she is miles and miles away, in Canada. I planned out the road-trip, but never went through with it... What would my family say after all? We stayed very close for about 3 years, then we both kind of went our ways... She got a boyfriend and was experimenting with various aspects of life, as I was as well...
MOD EDIT..NOT TALK OF BUYING OR SELLING SCHEDULED SUBSTANCES!!!!!!!!
I haven't spoken about this in many years, but I can tell you straight-up that this was a life changing experience. During this ordeal, I could think of nothing else but my mom and dad, and my Canadian best friend... The girl I first feel in love with and the fact she'd never see me again or know what the hell happened.
Sparing you many paragraphs:
- Got first girl-friend at age of 19.
- Father was diagnosed with ALS at 23.
- Married at 25.
- Father passed and my wife and I separated at 27.
- Divorced at 29.
- My Canadian soulmate separated after 6 years of marriage (Became pregnant at 19, married to the "wrong man").
- She visits me, and I visit her every so many months... it gets expensive with flight arrangements and what-not, but that'll change as soon as we get married and sponsors my permanent residency in to Canada... It's awesome there and I cannot wait to move and be with her, everyday.
It's crazy how things turn out in life. It's all about balance, and what I've seen is the equilibrium never changes. Perhaps this the Ying/Yang or the Chi or how energy manifests itself. When things get good, something goes bad. When things go bad, something goes good. Not always the case, and I know I am generalizing, but this is just a personal observation of mine.
I realize that life is precious and that you have to stay strong and communicate with those that you love. I just attended a funeral last week for a cousin of mine that committed suicide. She was young, at the age of 15/16. She had been raped some months ago, and between peers calling her a slut and her family trying to right what was wrong, it was just too much for her to handle. Not trying to start a huge conversation about that, but just wanted to mention that there is so much more to life and this world that we do not understand.
Cool stuff, now you know a lot about Trynottoforgetname, and if you were committed enough to read the walls-o-text above, I'd personally like to shake your hand and say hi.
You'll see more of me around... once I open up more and shed away some of my shyness.
Cheers and good day!
I'm 29 and been a long-time advocate of intellectual thought and conversation. I've been a lurker here for quite some time and my interest spawned about 10 years ago with Lucy and Shrooms. I feel that there is so much about life and this world that we cannot understand due to limitations surrounding our environment and our psyche. I can see that many of the followers here in the DMT Nexus community share similar passions and I look forward to spending more time here.
About myself...
- Appreciates Computer Science.
- I deploy VoIP solutions and Call Centers.
- I am a "techie" or a geek basically. I am also learning some development stuff with pything/XML and stuff.
You guys like stories and stuff, yes?
I'll keep you entertained with something then...
I was young, dumb and stupid for many years, following the wrong crowd because of social acceptance. I felt I was destined for so much more, but got stuck in a rut. I felt very few understood me, except for a small handful of people. I wasn't "emo" or depressed, but I yearned for something more. I hated school, and the social groups and people trying so hard to "fit in". Thus, I went behind my computer and monitor and I wasted countless hours, chatting with anonymous on #Shroomery IRC (Internet Relay Chat), and by strange fate, I somehow met the girl of my dreams on a random IRC channel. We chatted all the time, day and night, staying up to 4am, 6am some-times. She was my first love. Someone that I felt knew me 100% and I would consider her my soulmate. Problem was, I was < 18, and she is miles and miles away, in Canada. I planned out the road-trip, but never went through with it... What would my family say after all? We stayed very close for about 3 years, then we both kind of went our ways... She got a boyfriend and was experimenting with various aspects of life, as I was as well...
MOD EDIT..NOT TALK OF BUYING OR SELLING SCHEDULED SUBSTANCES!!!!!!!!
I haven't spoken about this in many years, but I can tell you straight-up that this was a life changing experience. During this ordeal, I could think of nothing else but my mom and dad, and my Canadian best friend... The girl I first feel in love with and the fact she'd never see me again or know what the hell happened.
Sparing you many paragraphs:
- Got first girl-friend at age of 19.
- Father was diagnosed with ALS at 23.
- Married at 25.
- Father passed and my wife and I separated at 27.
- Divorced at 29.
- My Canadian soulmate separated after 6 years of marriage (Became pregnant at 19, married to the "wrong man").
- She visits me, and I visit her every so many months... it gets expensive with flight arrangements and what-not, but that'll change as soon as we get married and sponsors my permanent residency in to Canada... It's awesome there and I cannot wait to move and be with her, everyday.
It's crazy how things turn out in life. It's all about balance, and what I've seen is the equilibrium never changes. Perhaps this the Ying/Yang or the Chi or how energy manifests itself. When things get good, something goes bad. When things go bad, something goes good. Not always the case, and I know I am generalizing, but this is just a personal observation of mine.
I realize that life is precious and that you have to stay strong and communicate with those that you love. I just attended a funeral last week for a cousin of mine that committed suicide. She was young, at the age of 15/16. She had been raped some months ago, and between peers calling her a slut and her family trying to right what was wrong, it was just too much for her to handle. Not trying to start a huge conversation about that, but just wanted to mention that there is so much more to life and this world that we do not understand.
Cool stuff, now you know a lot about Trynottoforgetname, and if you were committed enough to read the walls-o-text above, I'd personally like to shake your hand and say hi.
You'll see more of me around... once I open up more and shed away some of my shyness.
Cheers and good day!
