So I'm clearly getting my new glass VG dialed in (thanks to much help from Madcapv2 and Dimitrius). I usually eyeball my spice dose, but in an effort to determine the effectiveness of my VG I weighed out 58mg and sandwiched it between some Elhaz smoking blend. My first draw got just a bit too hot and started to burn the herb blend, so I pulled the heat off and let it go out, and drew in the remaining smoke in the VG. I was starting to feel the effects pretty heavy, so I exhaled and put the flame to it again, and this time got a perfect vape of the remaining spice. What happened next I can not explain in very much detail. It's just NOT possible.
As soon as I filled my lungs to full capacity with vapor, I knew I was in for one hell of an experience. I was coming on faster than I could think, literally. I was able to set the lighter down on the table next to me. I tried to set the VG down as well, but my reality was so completely obliterated at this point, I simply couldn't. I just held it in my hand on my lap.
I can't even explain where I went next, but it was so intense and so completely chaotic that for the first time, with DMT, I thought. Oh shit, you did it this time. You took it too far. For the duration of this part of the experience I can't explain what I saw or where I went, just that every second felt like an hour, and that I was completely helpless to do anything about anything, like it or not.
At the point where I can start to describe things, it went like this:
I felt like my entire body had melted into a puddle of molten glass in my chair, and that my pipe had done the same thing. My legs, hands, and chair felt warm and wet. I was thinking it was just my body melted into liquid form. Then I thought, "Oh shit, you just pissed yourself, and you're also drooling into your lap, and your VG is spilling out upside down in your lap"! There were sooooo many entities yelling and screaming different things to me. Telling me that I'm "dumping my pipe and I'm making a mess". "Pay attention to what you are doing"! At this point I realized I just need to submit. This is honestly the first time I truly understood the meaning of submitting to the molecule. I started breathing deeply, and I figured I would deal with the piss, drool, and ash mess in my chair, once I returned. Nothing I could do about it in this state obviously! I remember so convincingly believing that THIS WORLD IS ABSOLUTELY REAL! THESE ENTITIES REALLY DO EXIST! THERE IS NO LONGER ANY QUESTION IN MY MIND IF THIS WORLD IS REAL OR IMAGINARY. These were my thoughts. There was no doubt in my mind at that point.
Finally I started coming back to a point where I could physically feel things again. With my eyes still closed I tried to rotate my pipe so it was right side up. It still felt wet and slippery. I was finally able to open my eyes and I looked down at the pipe. It was fine, it had not spilled at all, it wasn't wet, and I had NOT pissed myself or even made any kind of mess. Massive relief here!
I was now coming back to just some of the strong, yet mild in comparison, afterglow effects. I remember realizing that all those crazy static-like, fuzzy line OEV's that you see when coming back, are actually all the molecules of matter in vibration. That I was actually able to see the molecular vibration in all matter. I tried to set my pipe on my laptop, but it wanted to slide and vibrate off. I had a WONDERFUL and amazing moment of understanding matter at the molecular and atomic level, like never before. Everything was vibrating wildly. It wasn't just understanding the laws, but rather actually being able to visually witness them.
Slowly things came back to normal. I went into this with a specific objective (as always try to do), and boy did I get it! I got it, and then some, and then some more!!
Wow folks. It's going to take some time for me to digest this one, but I really wanted to get it down as a report as soon as I could.
Peace, love, epiphanies, and stay safe my friends! I love being able to share these things with people who truly understand and care.
-idt
As soon as I filled my lungs to full capacity with vapor, I knew I was in for one hell of an experience. I was coming on faster than I could think, literally. I was able to set the lighter down on the table next to me. I tried to set the VG down as well, but my reality was so completely obliterated at this point, I simply couldn't. I just held it in my hand on my lap.
I can't even explain where I went next, but it was so intense and so completely chaotic that for the first time, with DMT, I thought. Oh shit, you did it this time. You took it too far. For the duration of this part of the experience I can't explain what I saw or where I went, just that every second felt like an hour, and that I was completely helpless to do anything about anything, like it or not.
At the point where I can start to describe things, it went like this:
I felt like my entire body had melted into a puddle of molten glass in my chair, and that my pipe had done the same thing. My legs, hands, and chair felt warm and wet. I was thinking it was just my body melted into liquid form. Then I thought, "Oh shit, you just pissed yourself, and you're also drooling into your lap, and your VG is spilling out upside down in your lap"! There were sooooo many entities yelling and screaming different things to me. Telling me that I'm "dumping my pipe and I'm making a mess". "Pay attention to what you are doing"! At this point I realized I just need to submit. This is honestly the first time I truly understood the meaning of submitting to the molecule. I started breathing deeply, and I figured I would deal with the piss, drool, and ash mess in my chair, once I returned. Nothing I could do about it in this state obviously! I remember so convincingly believing that THIS WORLD IS ABSOLUTELY REAL! THESE ENTITIES REALLY DO EXIST! THERE IS NO LONGER ANY QUESTION IN MY MIND IF THIS WORLD IS REAL OR IMAGINARY. These were my thoughts. There was no doubt in my mind at that point.
Finally I started coming back to a point where I could physically feel things again. With my eyes still closed I tried to rotate my pipe so it was right side up. It still felt wet and slippery. I was finally able to open my eyes and I looked down at the pipe. It was fine, it had not spilled at all, it wasn't wet, and I had NOT pissed myself or even made any kind of mess. Massive relief here!
I was now coming back to just some of the strong, yet mild in comparison, afterglow effects. I remember realizing that all those crazy static-like, fuzzy line OEV's that you see when coming back, are actually all the molecules of matter in vibration. That I was actually able to see the molecular vibration in all matter. I tried to set my pipe on my laptop, but it wanted to slide and vibrate off. I had a WONDERFUL and amazing moment of understanding matter at the molecular and atomic level, like never before. Everything was vibrating wildly. It wasn't just understanding the laws, but rather actually being able to visually witness them.
Slowly things came back to normal. I went into this with a specific objective (as always try to do), and boy did I get it! I got it, and then some, and then some more!!
Wow folks. It's going to take some time for me to digest this one, but I really wanted to get it down as a report as soon as I could.
Peace, love, epiphanies, and stay safe my friends! I love being able to share these things with people who truly understand and care.
-idt