IDK if I should have put this in the pharma section, but w/e..
Last night, Ive been psyching myself up for a heavy pharma trip aiming to help me with chonic pain issues. I took about 150mg harmalas and 75mg DMT freebase. Laying on the couch, dark, flowing blobs slid past and the waterfall was asking what I wanted..I told it my intentions and it told me to "tell the truth" Which I did. I went into a long conversation w the waterfall and then he/it went away. A turtle appeared with the message "This turtle is very old and very wise. He will show you many things" At this point these were all harmala visions I believe.
I went into the other room for a booster of harmala/dmt, maybe 50/25. I then smoked a few hits of primo weed. I put on my headphone and listened to a few songs. The first one was extremely happy and euphoric. The DMT was seriously kicking in at this time (maybe 1.5 hours post initial ingestion) I had my eyes closed and was innundated with bliss and beautiful colored clouds in my minds eye. When I opened my eyes everything clicked. I looked at my monitor and was like "OMG, i am tripping serious balls now" You know the feeling. Anyhow..I put on some light ambient and retreated to the recliner where I put my head back and feet up. Eyes closed, Beautiful rainbow clouds morphing into solids lines interacting and tesselating. My ego is somewhat dissolving at this point and my body is becoming like concrete. There are message of "peace" and "we are not going to hurt you" and "relax, let us do our work now"
This is where the damn dragon gets me. The lines solidifed into a gigantic, beautiful, million-jewelled dragon. He reared his head and brought his face right up to mine. He said nothing, and I got no vibes from him one way or the other. I knew it was an invatation, though. I have a feeling if I accepted he would have taken me over to see some serious shit. But I chickened out and took half a xanax. I went outside to smoke and calmed down a lot. I then really, really regretted taking the xanax (GODDAMN i regret taking that xanax)and apologized to the spirits. They said "not to worry and to come back anytime" in a laughing, goodhearted manner..I mean seriously how does this shit do what it does???.
But the trip was still full of open and closed eye visuals and mental effects. I lay down in the grass and look at the sky, very blissful and enchanting. Smoking my ciggy. Pondering that damn dragon again. Call my GF and we have a really good conversation. Covered some stuff thats been needing to be covered for a while..very good.
Went back inside. layed in bed, smoked some pot, and was treated to seeing the elven machinery rooms. I think this was my favorite part. The Machines of the Elves. Holy GOD, the most complex gears and wheels, turning rods that are manipulating machines that generate reality as we see it. ..Machines shooting blobs of light while these elves are running around laughing and giving me presents and doing tricks for me. I received a beautiful shard of what looked like ice, but morphed into a beautiful winged Pegasus. I believe I still have it in my heart.
Then it started winding down, I was getting caught in stupid mental loops of daily drama and general life. Not bad, mind you, I got a lot of work addressed related to my career and relationships. But kind of annoying so I took the other half a xanax and went to bed. I wonder if the stupid loops are a function of rue extract?? I ordered some caapi copy for next time and Im gonna re x my spice to see if that helps clean up the experience a bit. Dont get me wrong, it was very clean already, but I feel something more profund was missing...We shall see, won't we folks?
Next time I see that damn dragon, Im going in.
Last night, Ive been psyching myself up for a heavy pharma trip aiming to help me with chonic pain issues. I took about 150mg harmalas and 75mg DMT freebase. Laying on the couch, dark, flowing blobs slid past and the waterfall was asking what I wanted..I told it my intentions and it told me to "tell the truth" Which I did. I went into a long conversation w the waterfall and then he/it went away. A turtle appeared with the message "This turtle is very old and very wise. He will show you many things" At this point these were all harmala visions I believe.
I went into the other room for a booster of harmala/dmt, maybe 50/25. I then smoked a few hits of primo weed. I put on my headphone and listened to a few songs. The first one was extremely happy and euphoric. The DMT was seriously kicking in at this time (maybe 1.5 hours post initial ingestion) I had my eyes closed and was innundated with bliss and beautiful colored clouds in my minds eye. When I opened my eyes everything clicked. I looked at my monitor and was like "OMG, i am tripping serious balls now" You know the feeling. Anyhow..I put on some light ambient and retreated to the recliner where I put my head back and feet up. Eyes closed, Beautiful rainbow clouds morphing into solids lines interacting and tesselating. My ego is somewhat dissolving at this point and my body is becoming like concrete. There are message of "peace" and "we are not going to hurt you" and "relax, let us do our work now"
This is where the damn dragon gets me. The lines solidifed into a gigantic, beautiful, million-jewelled dragon. He reared his head and brought his face right up to mine. He said nothing, and I got no vibes from him one way or the other. I knew it was an invatation, though. I have a feeling if I accepted he would have taken me over to see some serious shit. But I chickened out and took half a xanax. I went outside to smoke and calmed down a lot. I then really, really regretted taking the xanax (GODDAMN i regret taking that xanax)and apologized to the spirits. They said "not to worry and to come back anytime" in a laughing, goodhearted manner..I mean seriously how does this shit do what it does???.
But the trip was still full of open and closed eye visuals and mental effects. I lay down in the grass and look at the sky, very blissful and enchanting. Smoking my ciggy. Pondering that damn dragon again. Call my GF and we have a really good conversation. Covered some stuff thats been needing to be covered for a while..very good.
Went back inside. layed in bed, smoked some pot, and was treated to seeing the elven machinery rooms. I think this was my favorite part. The Machines of the Elves. Holy GOD, the most complex gears and wheels, turning rods that are manipulating machines that generate reality as we see it. ..Machines shooting blobs of light while these elves are running around laughing and giving me presents and doing tricks for me. I received a beautiful shard of what looked like ice, but morphed into a beautiful winged Pegasus. I believe I still have it in my heart.
Then it started winding down, I was getting caught in stupid mental loops of daily drama and general life. Not bad, mind you, I got a lot of work addressed related to my career and relationships. But kind of annoying so I took the other half a xanax and went to bed. I wonder if the stupid loops are a function of rue extract?? I ordered some caapi copy for next time and Im gonna re x my spice to see if that helps clean up the experience a bit. Dont get me wrong, it was very clean already, but I feel something more profund was missing...We shall see, won't we folks?
Next time I see that damn dragon, Im going in.
