This life has not been easy to process. My early years were not filled with good memories or positive experiences. I spent my adolescence hell bent on killing myself and hiding deep within myself from the intense pain. It was not until mushrooms were given to me after my fifth suicide attempt that I found the love of source and the deep mysteries given to me to process. It has been 12years since I first learned of the "lost world" within. I am still processing all the wonders and mysteries I got to experience. From this moments reflection I look back and see the great change that has taken place and the healing I have gained. I am still healing and trying to reconnect to my full self who I have only gotten to visit during my travels. I miss the full self I became, free from the EGO and divine.

I do not have aware people in my life that I can go see and visit. I am lonely and need to share communion with someone here in Alaska. I miss home.

I have been given the honor to go to Peru to study to be a shaman, just from the shamans seeing my art. I want to go but have to make my own way. I am trying to put my art out into the world to contribute energy and bless my path to Peru.