Thank you all for your answers, means alot

I feel as though im just a program in this vast universe

I never really though of the whole picture until i was introduced to this molecule

Others that i know that have had it, never want to have it again as it scared the shit out of them

I however keep going back in to lean more about it

I find that " the Programe": i now call it erases my memory upon coming back to the reality  i know

Im nor sure that  it wants me to remember the whole picture of who we are and the answer to everything

If i appose the  "program" it falls apart into goo but if i let it take me i feel as though my whole reality , that i know gets sucked up into the universe its self

Alos wonderring does anyone feel like they are being brainwashed or is this part of the program

thanks

Peace and love to the Universe

Jim