Acolyte
Rising Star
First 40g Caapi Experience:
I spent five days prior doing extra heavy THH mediation (new report here), a healthy diet with no alcohol, and lots of hot baths (to remove toxins). I felt a little intimidated for my first day of school. The morning of, I set up my space with plants, water, a bucket and blankets. I hide all the phones, showered, did some yoga and drank* 40g of vine seeking a celestial curriculum to follow.
I thought often of breaking my brew down into two 20g doses, but my intuition kept telling me to "just have a full go at it." I did so and relaxed with a washcloth over my eyes and waited:
+5 mins- slight buzzing
+10mins- I can hear EVERYTHING, distant trucks, the ticking of the clock in the other
room. Strong Buzzing. “Mental vibrations.” slight nausea. Feel yucky.
+15mins- Intense buzzing, no visuals. Feel very yucky.
+15-30mins- VERY intense, horrible buzzing, slight waves of nausea. My head feels as if it’s in a paint mixer on a ship tossed at sea. No visuals. I also feel like I’m trapped under a lid and get many “throat marbles.”
+31mins- Vomit. Very intense, horrible head-battering buzzing. It hurts to look with open eyes, the carpet is crawling and shaking.
+ THREE HOURS OF DRY-HEAVING and wishing I were dead. No hang over in my life has felt worse. I dry heave every time I move. Much of this time was spent in a warm bath, or a nearly passed out “nap.”
+ 4 hours- I felt slightly violated and vow NEVER to touch Caapi again
+ One DAY- I apologies to the Caapi Vine for my frustration and ignorance. I AM a foolish monkey...
+ Two DAYs- I DO feel more open and am noting emotions I hadn’t felt before: More direct anger in fact. Which is very strange because I hate witnessing or feeling anger; but I suppose this means I significantly repress it?
I may or may not do another condensed Caapi only brew. I WILL try simple Caapi tea, steadily and daily perhaps if we don't abuse each other too much.
My lessons from a 40g B. Caapi “bummer”:
+ The mind learns faster than the body; but the body must also learn, and at its own pace
+ With all these awesome reports on The Nexus, over-expectation is inevitable, and needs to be managed
+ Listening to what The Nexus says is good, BUT REMBERING IS BETTER. I was confused and upset and didn’t know why DESPITE the fact I now see 69ron AND Acolon had mentioned these problems directly to one of my posts! Ha.
+ It hurts to look with open eyes?
+ The path is indeed long
+ Caapi alone can be VERY physically intense/horrible
Thank you Nexus for your love, support and monkey wisdom.
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*Preparation Method:
1) Sanitized all equipment, storage vessels with boiling water and vinegar
2) Spent two hours VERY finely shredding a 40g chunk of whole B. Cappi
3) Two 40min “near boils” with 1 gal of bottled water each boil, and eight drops of phosphoric acid (to ph 4)
4) Several hours “near boil” boil off, filter through tea bag, refrigerate until morning
5) Re-heat (not boil) before consumption. Smile.
I spent five days prior doing extra heavy THH mediation (new report here), a healthy diet with no alcohol, and lots of hot baths (to remove toxins). I felt a little intimidated for my first day of school. The morning of, I set up my space with plants, water, a bucket and blankets. I hide all the phones, showered, did some yoga and drank* 40g of vine seeking a celestial curriculum to follow.
I thought often of breaking my brew down into two 20g doses, but my intuition kept telling me to "just have a full go at it." I did so and relaxed with a washcloth over my eyes and waited:
+5 mins- slight buzzing
+10mins- I can hear EVERYTHING, distant trucks, the ticking of the clock in the other
room. Strong Buzzing. “Mental vibrations.” slight nausea. Feel yucky.
+15mins- Intense buzzing, no visuals. Feel very yucky.
+15-30mins- VERY intense, horrible buzzing, slight waves of nausea. My head feels as if it’s in a paint mixer on a ship tossed at sea. No visuals. I also feel like I’m trapped under a lid and get many “throat marbles.”
+31mins- Vomit. Very intense, horrible head-battering buzzing. It hurts to look with open eyes, the carpet is crawling and shaking.
+ THREE HOURS OF DRY-HEAVING and wishing I were dead. No hang over in my life has felt worse. I dry heave every time I move. Much of this time was spent in a warm bath, or a nearly passed out “nap.”
+ 4 hours- I felt slightly violated and vow NEVER to touch Caapi again
+ One DAY- I apologies to the Caapi Vine for my frustration and ignorance. I AM a foolish monkey...
+ Two DAYs- I DO feel more open and am noting emotions I hadn’t felt before: More direct anger in fact. Which is very strange because I hate witnessing or feeling anger; but I suppose this means I significantly repress it?
I may or may not do another condensed Caapi only brew. I WILL try simple Caapi tea, steadily and daily perhaps if we don't abuse each other too much.
My lessons from a 40g B. Caapi “bummer”:
+ The mind learns faster than the body; but the body must also learn, and at its own pace
+ With all these awesome reports on The Nexus, over-expectation is inevitable, and needs to be managed
+ Listening to what The Nexus says is good, BUT REMBERING IS BETTER. I was confused and upset and didn’t know why DESPITE the fact I now see 69ron AND Acolon had mentioned these problems directly to one of my posts! Ha.
+ It hurts to look with open eyes?
+ The path is indeed long
+ Caapi alone can be VERY physically intense/horrible
Thank you Nexus for your love, support and monkey wisdom.
a.
*Preparation Method:
1) Sanitized all equipment, storage vessels with boiling water and vinegar
2) Spent two hours VERY finely shredding a 40g chunk of whole B. Cappi
3) Two 40min “near boils” with 1 gal of bottled water each boil, and eight drops of phosphoric acid (to ph 4)
4) Several hours “near boil” boil off, filter through tea bag, refrigerate until morning
5) Re-heat (not boil) before consumption. Smile.
