Yeah it can be crazy seeing yourself acting a certain way back then and completely forget about what your old mindsets were like.  I used to have a really fiery, flamboyant personality and i was a really happpy and outgoing person right before i hit high school, but soon after that my life went down a steep spiral and it seemed to get worse as years went by.  I really wish i could get that old personality back but i really don't know how to do it.

Somebody i was having a discussion with one day told me about certain shamans and medicine men who can do soul retrievals to get things like that back into your life.  I looked into a bit but i'm not sure if it is real or whether it works or not.  Anyone else have experience with this?