blessedsensi
Rising Star
Hello all!
First of all i think of myself as still a relative young guy, maybe say i'm still on my 1/4 of life, but i have already made some really good progress's in my opinion, but... i'm still young! and have much to learn and improve in myself :roll:
So from when I was a child I always had an interest for the hippie time, but not really knowing the full spectrum of this movement or it's beliefs, its just something about nature it self that I wanted!
Yes indeed i liked nature, but there were some dishonest in this thinking because I didn't threat animals at the same level of other animals(humans), i only though " oh its pretty lets play with it", sometimes hurting them and bullying them perhaps. Maybe this was a manifestation of the bullying infected in me in school... oh those idiots that know nothing about respect...I channelled that fury i had inside my through exercise in the body and i turned much more calm on that aspect.
In my grow I then learn to fully respect nature, not only by the hurting/annoy of domestic animals, but by not pollute and not killing small animals that in fact they're in their home!
With this i now had respect to give! but did i receive respect? hmmm till some time ago i even though that not believing the words of the next one, the ones I socialise with and meet, was indeed a form of disrespectfulness, weeeell not quite so! Indeed i learn from a kinda rough way that i must question the others and i must confront them with their attitudes and beliefs, not only to safe guard myself but to even improve the life of close ones, make them realise that they could be better with their thinking and their life in general.
Now to talk about my interest in mind altering substances! :d
I began to experiment with alcohol when i was 14/15, with some taste of Black Eristoff with passion fruit! yumii :roll: and the alcohol continued till i was 16/17 but only in party moods! I liked it because it made me more comfortable with the ones around me.
Why did the alcohol stop? well i started to smoke hash! and that made me like " wooohaaa alcohol compared to this is truly shit man!",then from hash to weed, and smoking what i say today Huuge amounts of weed that really wasn't justified! why the heal smoke 30g on a night??? it made me go to the catacombs of my brain! really didn't enjoyed it, it was like nothing existed... pure darkness...
The heavy use of smokes started reveal on my consciousness and brain, i left hash, it was doing no good to me! making me feel unsocial and to lazy, like i wanted to do something but at the same time i didn't want to make it, it was like a war in my brain.
from then on I only smoked weed in not so bit quantities!
but tobacco came in to substitute the every day smoking i was messing with the left of hash.
I always liked apple computers and products, when i watched a episode of Diggnation that Kevin Rose was talking about the Steve Jobs( SJ ) Biography and he commenting on the fact that SJ said LSD was one of the most important things in his life, i knew that moment i really needed to try it!
My journeys with LSD have been amazing and mind revealing! i have already discovered so much because of it. It has interested me in so many thematics that i previously I never had any interest thus making me a more cultural person and more activity in the day to day life. One of which is Buddhism, it really sounds good to me now.
I'm performing some changes in my habits like the language and way i talk between me and some specific people in my life, detox of tobacco and coffee.
which i would like your opinion...Coffee, do you think it is good to leave it your to continue use it? I have a strange feel on coffee and dont' know what to really think on it.
I'm on a artistic school and i work both the computer part and the hands on. I like pretty much everything that i can play with, more on the sector of graphical, image is my area!
I have some drawings that i will someday post in here to see the feedback and some advices from you guys until then i will still continue the develop my abilities and express myself better through disincorporation of the drawing material
well thats about it, there are many things left to talk but i dont feel like writing more! sorry about that xDD
First of all i think of myself as still a relative young guy, maybe say i'm still on my 1/4 of life, but i have already made some really good progress's in my opinion, but... i'm still young! and have much to learn and improve in myself :roll:
So from when I was a child I always had an interest for the hippie time, but not really knowing the full spectrum of this movement or it's beliefs, its just something about nature it self that I wanted!
Yes indeed i liked nature, but there were some dishonest in this thinking because I didn't threat animals at the same level of other animals(humans), i only though " oh its pretty lets play with it", sometimes hurting them and bullying them perhaps. Maybe this was a manifestation of the bullying infected in me in school... oh those idiots that know nothing about respect...I channelled that fury i had inside my through exercise in the body and i turned much more calm on that aspect.
In my grow I then learn to fully respect nature, not only by the hurting/annoy of domestic animals, but by not pollute and not killing small animals that in fact they're in their home!
With this i now had respect to give! but did i receive respect? hmmm till some time ago i even though that not believing the words of the next one, the ones I socialise with and meet, was indeed a form of disrespectfulness, weeeell not quite so! Indeed i learn from a kinda rough way that i must question the others and i must confront them with their attitudes and beliefs, not only to safe guard myself but to even improve the life of close ones, make them realise that they could be better with their thinking and their life in general.
Now to talk about my interest in mind altering substances! :d
I began to experiment with alcohol when i was 14/15, with some taste of Black Eristoff with passion fruit! yumii :roll: and the alcohol continued till i was 16/17 but only in party moods! I liked it because it made me more comfortable with the ones around me.
Why did the alcohol stop? well i started to smoke hash! and that made me like " wooohaaa alcohol compared to this is truly shit man!",then from hash to weed, and smoking what i say today Huuge amounts of weed that really wasn't justified! why the heal smoke 30g on a night??? it made me go to the catacombs of my brain! really didn't enjoyed it, it was like nothing existed... pure darkness...
The heavy use of smokes started reveal on my consciousness and brain, i left hash, it was doing no good to me! making me feel unsocial and to lazy, like i wanted to do something but at the same time i didn't want to make it, it was like a war in my brain.
from then on I only smoked weed in not so bit quantities!
but tobacco came in to substitute the every day smoking i was messing with the left of hash.I always liked apple computers and products, when i watched a episode of Diggnation that Kevin Rose was talking about the Steve Jobs( SJ ) Biography and he commenting on the fact that SJ said LSD was one of the most important things in his life, i knew that moment i really needed to try it!
My journeys with LSD have been amazing and mind revealing! i have already discovered so much because of it. It has interested me in so many thematics that i previously I never had any interest thus making me a more cultural person and more activity in the day to day life. One of which is Buddhism, it really sounds good to me now.
I'm performing some changes in my habits like the language and way i talk between me and some specific people in my life, detox of tobacco and coffee.
which i would like your opinion...Coffee, do you think it is good to leave it your to continue use it? I have a strange feel on coffee and dont' know what to really think on it.
I'm on a artistic school and i work both the computer part and the hands on. I like pretty much everything that i can play with, more on the sector of graphical, image is my area!
I have some drawings that i will someday post in here to see the feedback and some advices from you guys until then i will still continue the develop my abilities and express myself better through disincorporation of the drawing material
well thats about it, there are many things left to talk but i dont feel like writing more! sorry about that xDD
