Weird Energy Orb

[aethereon]

I had done changa for about 4 times at this point, earlier on i had some cool visuals. Not quite a crysanthemum by weird strnage flowy colored geometry that somehow felt very familiar to me. I've never managed to actually break through and have some sort of entity contact but one day i'm sure it will happen.

Anyways on my fourth round, did the biggest toke of the night. All was going fine for the first 30 seconds or so, hard to tell the time of course but just wanted to share that out of nowhere this like orb thingy exploded into my consciousness and obliterated reality completely. I was gone, except I could still feel myself breathing somewhere. It expanded outwards and I was inside this orb, the geometric visuals very drab but also very distinct. Quite unlike the flowey visuals i had before, in the way earlier it was nice colors, now it was just mostly blue electric geometric not quite fractally, hard to describe.

But I was quite anxious in this space thinking I had glitched out of the matrix and this was to be my reality forever now, It wasn't bad, it wasn't good, it just was and I was in it, with the desire to become part of the 'normal' reality... eventually i returned to my body but yeah that was totally surreal and unexpected lol. Dmt is crazy hehe.

 

[Pandora]

aethereon,

Interesting report. I wonder why the visuals were perceived as drab even though the implication is that the dose was solid and you were at least somewhat disconnected from your body? DMT is so unpredictable at times and never fails to surprise, no matter how many times I've done it, so I guess that is the answer.

I have also had lighter rounds then on the final round gone very deep even if the dose wasn't significantly increased. And at times this has happened after 6 hour breaks. Gotta love the spice.

Thinking you had glitched the matrix and were stuck - this seems to happen a lot with a decent dose of DMT. The idea of I broke something, I broke my brain, I died or something and THIS is my life and reality now. It sounds kind of strange and a little silly when sober yet so many of us have been precisely there and many of us more than once. Looking at your report, it sounds like you dealt with it well, just taking it in without judging it seemed to help. Observer psychonaut.

I cannot help but wonder what future explorations might yield for you.

Thank you for sharing this experience.

 

[aethereon]

Thank you, I appreciate your feedback. I tend to have a huge tolerance for DMT it seems. The dosage of this experience was around 200mg of changa, and like I mentioned before I had already been doing it for a couple hours so it was a lot of changa in the span of a 3-4 hours. So I had done like 160, 160, 180 and then the 200mg. Just wanted to go back to the space and see the nice flowey visuals, colorful visuals and keep stretching, both physically and metaphysically. I didn't expect this sort of 'dark' breakthrough experience which is why it caught me off guard, it fully came out of nowhere.

There was another time a few years ago I had the same type of thought, that I had glitched out of the matrix/reality as I was in a sort of cartoony version of reality, but I was still in this reality although a completely altered form of it. This time was more or less nothingness, with the exception of the blue sort of visuals I was seeing. I've even had glimpses of this no-thing-ness before but generally I can sort of bring myself out of it, open my eyes and be 'back' more or less but this time there was no coming back and that was what was a bit freaky. It's like I was still there with all my thoughts and even memories but then just inhabiting this disembodied existence, my only clue I was still 'here' was my breathing which I could hear - having had a bit of a cold my nose was stuffy and I could hear my stuffy nose breathing but there was just no way to get out of the space until it faded. And of course the unnerving feeling that I would be there forever. I guess I'm happy it didn't leave me in there as it was indeed quite discombobulating.

As a side note, a friend of mine once showed me a remarkable website called 'headless.org' with some interesting observations, the perspective of normal waking day reality is a sort of 'headless' one for lack of a better term. It's like we are this nothingness at the center of it all, from which we perceive the world (or if you believe this sort of thing, that the world isn't so much external but we are the world.) Anyways it's like this orb exploded out from this centre of perspective out over everything and completely shattered or obliterated the "outside" world. This is basically the closest that I have been to a breakthrough, but I do still long to experience some sort of 'entity contact.'

One last thing, in Nick Sands article Moving into the sacred world of DMT he talks about how entity contact is just a part of our own imagination, which is truly limitless but the experiences seem to be so foreign or alien they can't accept this idea that is ones own creation. I'm curious to experience this myself once again even if it is just 'all in our heads.' Who really knows though, I guess it's all part of the mystery.

 

[Pandora]

Replying just to the end of that I gotta say the big mystery of DMT is delightful. Is this all in our heads? If not then is some part of our soul or something being transported to a different/higher dimension when we get enough DMT into us? If so, then the logical conclusion based upon experience is that my mind not only contains every second of memory (normally completely unaccessible) of my nearly 57 year life, but it contains unbounded Universes that are inhabited. My bounded head space contains the infinite.

So which is it? Supernatural transport? or The brain is the most complex and fascinating thing in the known Universe and though it is finite it contains infinities? Either one works for me and makes me smile. We truly are on a great adventure.