Rollenberg
Rising Star
Hello Nexus
I have been a long time lurker, just started being active in the Nexus Chat, and decided I should give a proper introduction to the forum.
I was born in the middle of the eighties, to a middle class family living in the suburbia of New Jersey. Before I was old enough to walk and talk my family relocated to a rural part of Florida under a governmental program which paid my mothers tuition in exchange for her signing a contract to provide health care in a rural part of the country.
When I was 6 years old I began playing hockey, and it, very quickly, became a huge part of my life. I became completely immersed in the sport and quickly became very skilled. I played on various traveling teams, in various tournaments for the vast majority of my life until the age of 18. I grew up playing several times a week, sometimes playing multiple tournaments for multiple teams on all days of the weak, sometimes even playing on more than one team in the same tournament, or sometimes playing two different tournaments in different parts of the state, on the same weekends. I was extremely skilled, and liked by most of my teammates. This was a great part of my life, but as I got older I realized I was missing out on some of the best things in life by devoting my entire life to the sport. I began to grow tired of never being able to see my friends outside of school so I decided to quit playing in my sophomore year of high school.
I quickly got very interested in the then thriving rave scene. I learned how to enjoy dancing, and became very involved in the music. All along learning to play various instruments, learning about musical theory, and learning how to operate the electronics behind the music. I went to school for Recording Engineering and quickly learned that in the entertainment industry its not what you know, but who you know, that determines if you make it or not. I did not think I had what it takes to become a professional recording engineer simply because all my life while I was playing hockey, I missed learning how to interact with society. I had become a loner.
After school I realized that I was always fixing computer problems as I ran into them while creating music, so I decided that I would attempt to make a career out of my computer skills. This was much more successful for me, and I quickly began to thrive in the computer support industry. After a few years I had worked my way up to a fairly high position within a fairly large corporation. I began having problems in life due to my use of prescription opiates. I awoke one day realizing how much my corporation depended on me, and how much responsibility I had delegated to myself. I quit my job and began working on kicking my opiate habit.
Now, altered states of consciousness had always been a pretty important area of study for me in my life, ever since I was 5 or 6 and I remember clearly my first time spinning around in circles until I fell to the ground dizzy.
While in middle school, around the age of 12 I had started smoking pot on the weekends, and by the time I was in 9th grade I was exploring MDMA and LSD on a regular weakly basis. I discovered opiates in my 11th grade year and lost sight of what it was that I was truly after. I realized one day that I had lost the desire to experience different states of consciousness, and I simply was looking for a way to feel comfortable. This led me to the disaster that has been my addiction.
Since getting clean I have came back into touch with my real self, my psychedelic self. I stumbled upon someone who had extracted some DMT and was delighted to finally get to experience the pinnacle of psychedelia. Very soon after this first time I began my own extraction, which was quite fruitful.
Since coming into contact with DMT I have had a much more spiritually fulfilling life. I have slowly been becoming myself in every sense of the word.
I have slowly put myself in the position to take life as it comes with little attachment to the outcomes of events that are uncontrollable by me, while all the more becoming even more involved in the aspects of my life that are controllable by me.
I have met some amazing people on the nexus already and this is my first post!
I hope to continue to get to know great people that exist in this world, while letting people get to know me. I really want to thank the nexus for waking me up from my opiate induced suicidality. I hope that I can help someone in the same way the nexus has helped me. Even if its as simple as just helping someone find humor in tragedy, excitement in the mundane experiences of this wonderful event known as life, or if someone just wants to hear my opinion on something that's on their mind.
I hope to continue the path of spiritual wholeness until I reach the apex of existence in my short stint of time in this universe, and I hope when I get to the top of that mountain I can have some of you to share the experience with.
I would love to discuss topics related to states of consciousness, chemical extractions, spirituality, and especially music. I am always open to suggestions and recommendations, and love to share my spiritual wealth with like-minded individuals.
I would love it for my name to become a household name to people who frequent the Nexus, as I have discovered that while we come from all walks of life, we seem to share one thing universally throughout the Nexus, and that is an ever growing appreciation for existence.
I am sorry for this being such a long essay, but I had to struggle to fit it all in (and had to leave tons of extremely relevant information out to keep it to this size)
If you have any questions feel free to ask me , as I am always open to share, whether the sharing is of a material, spiritual, knowledgeable or opinionated nature.
Peace, and love on your eternal journey,
Chris
I have been a long time lurker, just started being active in the Nexus Chat, and decided I should give a proper introduction to the forum.
I was born in the middle of the eighties, to a middle class family living in the suburbia of New Jersey. Before I was old enough to walk and talk my family relocated to a rural part of Florida under a governmental program which paid my mothers tuition in exchange for her signing a contract to provide health care in a rural part of the country.
When I was 6 years old I began playing hockey, and it, very quickly, became a huge part of my life. I became completely immersed in the sport and quickly became very skilled. I played on various traveling teams, in various tournaments for the vast majority of my life until the age of 18. I grew up playing several times a week, sometimes playing multiple tournaments for multiple teams on all days of the weak, sometimes even playing on more than one team in the same tournament, or sometimes playing two different tournaments in different parts of the state, on the same weekends. I was extremely skilled, and liked by most of my teammates. This was a great part of my life, but as I got older I realized I was missing out on some of the best things in life by devoting my entire life to the sport. I began to grow tired of never being able to see my friends outside of school so I decided to quit playing in my sophomore year of high school.
I quickly got very interested in the then thriving rave scene. I learned how to enjoy dancing, and became very involved in the music. All along learning to play various instruments, learning about musical theory, and learning how to operate the electronics behind the music. I went to school for Recording Engineering and quickly learned that in the entertainment industry its not what you know, but who you know, that determines if you make it or not. I did not think I had what it takes to become a professional recording engineer simply because all my life while I was playing hockey, I missed learning how to interact with society. I had become a loner.
After school I realized that I was always fixing computer problems as I ran into them while creating music, so I decided that I would attempt to make a career out of my computer skills. This was much more successful for me, and I quickly began to thrive in the computer support industry. After a few years I had worked my way up to a fairly high position within a fairly large corporation. I began having problems in life due to my use of prescription opiates. I awoke one day realizing how much my corporation depended on me, and how much responsibility I had delegated to myself. I quit my job and began working on kicking my opiate habit.
Now, altered states of consciousness had always been a pretty important area of study for me in my life, ever since I was 5 or 6 and I remember clearly my first time spinning around in circles until I fell to the ground dizzy.
While in middle school, around the age of 12 I had started smoking pot on the weekends, and by the time I was in 9th grade I was exploring MDMA and LSD on a regular weakly basis. I discovered opiates in my 11th grade year and lost sight of what it was that I was truly after. I realized one day that I had lost the desire to experience different states of consciousness, and I simply was looking for a way to feel comfortable. This led me to the disaster that has been my addiction.
Since getting clean I have came back into touch with my real self, my psychedelic self. I stumbled upon someone who had extracted some DMT and was delighted to finally get to experience the pinnacle of psychedelia. Very soon after this first time I began my own extraction, which was quite fruitful.
Since coming into contact with DMT I have had a much more spiritually fulfilling life. I have slowly been becoming myself in every sense of the word.
I have slowly put myself in the position to take life as it comes with little attachment to the outcomes of events that are uncontrollable by me, while all the more becoming even more involved in the aspects of my life that are controllable by me.
I have met some amazing people on the nexus already and this is my first post!
I hope to continue to get to know great people that exist in this world, while letting people get to know me. I really want to thank the nexus for waking me up from my opiate induced suicidality. I hope that I can help someone in the same way the nexus has helped me. Even if its as simple as just helping someone find humor in tragedy, excitement in the mundane experiences of this wonderful event known as life, or if someone just wants to hear my opinion on something that's on their mind.
I hope to continue the path of spiritual wholeness until I reach the apex of existence in my short stint of time in this universe, and I hope when I get to the top of that mountain I can have some of you to share the experience with.
I would love to discuss topics related to states of consciousness, chemical extractions, spirituality, and especially music. I am always open to suggestions and recommendations, and love to share my spiritual wealth with like-minded individuals.
I would love it for my name to become a household name to people who frequent the Nexus, as I have discovered that while we come from all walks of life, we seem to share one thing universally throughout the Nexus, and that is an ever growing appreciation for existence.
I am sorry for this being such a long essay, but I had to struggle to fit it all in (and had to leave tons of extremely relevant information out to keep it to this size)
If you have any questions feel free to ask me , as I am always open to share, whether the sharing is of a material, spiritual, knowledgeable or opinionated nature.
Peace, and love on your eternal journey,
Chris
