Is this that state when you say "please, everyone, leave me alone, I don't want to get involved with all this tiring stuff you are doing, I just want to be with myself, in my version of peace (and please don't disturb me with your moral judgments)"?

What was the negative aspect of this state that caused you to "wake up" from it? Why couldn't you just go on with it? What is the mechanism that makes one get out of this numbness?

I'm asking this because I think a lot of people have similar problems today. A kind of nihilism and cynicism takes over. And I myself can't see the way out, how to help them.

You say:

This is really promising. Could you elaborate on that?

Not necessarily now, but I think this would be a good way to help others. To leave a note for people like you were before and explain them the way out.

(Actually, this desire to withdraw may be a latent desire in all of us. I know I have it in myself, otherwise I wouldn't have jumped on it. It would be good to know how to work with it.)