Jox
Rising Star
Who am I?
I thought the upbringing doesn't matter, but after some time living in the USA, I realized, Oh mi god!!! I am a communist, blood is blood, and its my dirty secret, it still causes havoc in USA soil if I mention it.
I grew up going to public nude beaches, looking for man on man sex, which I realized is OK by reading the sex-educational magazines in ex-Yugoslavia, and reading Carlos Castaneda. We were very progressive for a moment, contrary to the capitalist criticism. After my military service I left home without notice and ended up in Mexico, Oaxaca looking for Don Juan, of course...
....ended up in Santa Barbara, California. An USA couple took care of me, FBI retired investigator and his wife. I loved them, they had good will, and some lightness I never experienced before in Europe, I felt welcomed, it was great, it was my new USA family, suburbia felt very exotic and supportive....
.... in NYC I am parting my ass off and applied to a private art school for film. I got accepted, got merit scholarship... and a had a TERRIBLY bad tip on mushrooms. These two things got me off the streets. Yet the trip was so bad that i think it was coming back all the time. I started Zen, when i sat on the cushion and faced the wall, I never let it go, it has been the only thing that was taming my mind...
...it became my path, and years after, I read a book "Modern Primitives", relationship of pain and the mind was clear immediately... later on I got a job to shoot SM educational videos. I started SM and got immediately to advance scenes due to my Zen mind, it was great to fly on your own endorphins...
...my current partner of 8 years has Borderline Personality disorder, which we didn't know until just a month ago, but me as being a mind person was clear from the beginning that it is something with the mind, neurosis, depression... We did many things until I decided to teach him meditation... but realistically he couldn't do it, until he did IBOGAINE, it changed it all, his mind opened up and he started to meditate like a monk, or like me after years of hurting my ass...
... I think this is it! Psychedelics and meditation... many people go in and out of meditation places, less then 10% stick to it and get a real benefit, yet with the introduction by Ibogaine, and other psychedelics will make it all that much better...
this is a piece of me
thanx
ps. oh yes, WHY ME HERE? I want to learn all about psychedelics, and I like it here, lets see if you like me. Not easy.
And on chat GreatfulDad helped me with my first extraction, which almost ended up in the sewage, but I ate the black-green witchcraft powder I made and it worked. Thanx again DAD.
I thought the upbringing doesn't matter, but after some time living in the USA, I realized, Oh mi god!!! I am a communist, blood is blood, and its my dirty secret, it still causes havoc in USA soil if I mention it.
I grew up going to public nude beaches, looking for man on man sex, which I realized is OK by reading the sex-educational magazines in ex-Yugoslavia, and reading Carlos Castaneda. We were very progressive for a moment, contrary to the capitalist criticism. After my military service I left home without notice and ended up in Mexico, Oaxaca looking for Don Juan, of course...
....ended up in Santa Barbara, California. An USA couple took care of me, FBI retired investigator and his wife. I loved them, they had good will, and some lightness I never experienced before in Europe, I felt welcomed, it was great, it was my new USA family, suburbia felt very exotic and supportive....
.... in NYC I am parting my ass off and applied to a private art school for film. I got accepted, got merit scholarship... and a had a TERRIBLY bad tip on mushrooms. These two things got me off the streets. Yet the trip was so bad that i think it was coming back all the time. I started Zen, when i sat on the cushion and faced the wall, I never let it go, it has been the only thing that was taming my mind...
...it became my path, and years after, I read a book "Modern Primitives", relationship of pain and the mind was clear immediately... later on I got a job to shoot SM educational videos. I started SM and got immediately to advance scenes due to my Zen mind, it was great to fly on your own endorphins...
...my current partner of 8 years has Borderline Personality disorder, which we didn't know until just a month ago, but me as being a mind person was clear from the beginning that it is something with the mind, neurosis, depression... We did many things until I decided to teach him meditation... but realistically he couldn't do it, until he did IBOGAINE, it changed it all, his mind opened up and he started to meditate like a monk, or like me after years of hurting my ass...
... I think this is it! Psychedelics and meditation... many people go in and out of meditation places, less then 10% stick to it and get a real benefit, yet with the introduction by Ibogaine, and other psychedelics will make it all that much better...
this is a piece of me
thanx
ps. oh yes, WHY ME HERE? I want to learn all about psychedelics, and I like it here, lets see if you like me. Not easy.
And on chat GreatfulDad helped me with my first extraction, which almost ended up in the sewage, but I ate the black-green witchcraft powder I made and it worked. Thanx again DAD.
