XoDys
Seeker of The Secrets
Why did I join these forums? The answer to that can be found at the top of this page.
However, I would like to explain my intentions more explicitly.
I have always been fascinated by the unexplainable. At a very early age I began to question
my own existence. I was brought up as a Christian but it never made much sense to me.
It seemed as though everyone else around me was content with all the questions floating around but
as many of them ignored these questions I tried to answer them.
I quickly became confused and disoriented. At the age of six I began to talk with an imagined Grim Reaper
who would come to me and spill the secrets of the Universe. It told me that everything around me was a lie, that
God himself was using me as an experiment and had created this inescapable illusion around me to which I
previously knew as the Cosmos. I grew paranoid of my friends thinking they were in fact machines built to watch over me
and report any unusual actions. I eventually learned to ignore these thoughts and returned to being a 'normal' human
being.Of course, I never mentioned this to anyone until later in life when I was surrounded by caring friends who would understand
for fear of being labeled as insane.
I began to grow interested in psychedelics at an early age as well. It might had been earlier if was able to get my hands on
some but it wasn't until my 8th grade year that I had ingested the seeds of Morning Glory. I obtained the seeds off a plant that grew in my mothers garden. The taste of those dreaded things still linger on my tongue. Very quickly I felt sick to my stomach. It felt slightly worse than a very bad
stomach flu. The pain was overwhelming and combined with the taste of the seeds within 3 hours I regurgitated the material
left in my stomach. The place my mind wandered during this time felt like a dream. The colors I saw were very vivid even in the darkness.
Although the most significant affects faded quickly after vomiting I had felt very relaxed afterwards and drifted off to sleep and had the most intense dreams.
Following this experience I grew fascinated with dreams and my ability to learn from them. This was the beginnings of my travels through altered consciousness. I was introduced to many tools such as 'shrooms, salvia, meditation,etc. to help me though my wanderings. I have read some material on dmt and thought of it as another potential tool. So this is why I am here, to learn more about this powerful substance and perhaps learn to extract and use it myself.
PS. sorry for the long intro but I had to give some background info to convey my current attitude for who we are is what we were.
However, I would like to explain my intentions more explicitly.
I have always been fascinated by the unexplainable. At a very early age I began to question
my own existence. I was brought up as a Christian but it never made much sense to me.
It seemed as though everyone else around me was content with all the questions floating around but
as many of them ignored these questions I tried to answer them.
I quickly became confused and disoriented. At the age of six I began to talk with an imagined Grim Reaper
who would come to me and spill the secrets of the Universe. It told me that everything around me was a lie, that
God himself was using me as an experiment and had created this inescapable illusion around me to which I
previously knew as the Cosmos. I grew paranoid of my friends thinking they were in fact machines built to watch over me
and report any unusual actions. I eventually learned to ignore these thoughts and returned to being a 'normal' human
being.Of course, I never mentioned this to anyone until later in life when I was surrounded by caring friends who would understand
for fear of being labeled as insane.
I began to grow interested in psychedelics at an early age as well. It might had been earlier if was able to get my hands on
some but it wasn't until my 8th grade year that I had ingested the seeds of Morning Glory. I obtained the seeds off a plant that grew in my mothers garden. The taste of those dreaded things still linger on my tongue. Very quickly I felt sick to my stomach. It felt slightly worse than a very bad
stomach flu. The pain was overwhelming and combined with the taste of the seeds within 3 hours I regurgitated the material
left in my stomach. The place my mind wandered during this time felt like a dream. The colors I saw were very vivid even in the darkness.
Although the most significant affects faded quickly after vomiting I had felt very relaxed afterwards and drifted off to sleep and had the most intense dreams.
Following this experience I grew fascinated with dreams and my ability to learn from them. This was the beginnings of my travels through altered consciousness. I was introduced to many tools such as 'shrooms, salvia, meditation,etc. to help me though my wanderings. I have read some material on dmt and thought of it as another potential tool. So this is why I am here, to learn more about this powerful substance and perhaps learn to extract and use it myself.
PS. sorry for the long intro but I had to give some background info to convey my current attitude for who we are is what we were.
:lol: I was also raised Christian but I guess my curiosity was more powerful than my fear.