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Why we go back

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Hi all

New to DMT still. 2 years in, <15 hits. And new to the Nexus!

One thing i've always been interested in is why I keep going back. The last time was a more intense experience and it made me question why do I want to do that again? (which I do) considering it was so full on.

The experience was not good as in pleasurable, or euphoric, neither was it bad or alarming and to call it a neutral experience is woefully inadequate.

I felt caught, frozen whilst i witnessed the world unfold. Unable to move and with no comprehension of what was going on - I was still holding the pipe, but I had no understanding of what was in my hand, nor even what a hand is. If I explained my experience(s) to somebody outside of the DMT world, they'd say it sounds horrific! Yet, i'm eager for more...

I just wonder what the pull is to go back. To learn? Though i know i'll never be able to comprehend what's going on. Maybe the wonderment of this other 'dimension' appearing from nothingness. Maybe it's because I feel I'm onto to something that so many millions around the world have no idea about - so an ego thing?

Anyway just having a ponder on a Saturday morning. Have a great weekend everyone! :d
 
For the reasons u stated... Pretty much...
I was a teen in the 90s using alotta good blotter... N when asked bk then by my non-LSD using friends "whats the appeal" my most honest response would b "its a break from this reality"...even tho there's no comparison between LSD n DMT my reasoning is still the same... N yes to learn... About myself n whatever else the medicine has to teach me...Roller coasters can b exciting n scary yet ppl stand in 100degree heat n humidity for 3hours to ride for 90secs...kinda the same i supposed... The thrill... The excitement... The unknown... Curiosity... N yeah maybe a dash of ego...thinkin n feelin like I have this little vial of white powder n jus a sprinkle of it will shoot me straight to Alien'ville...my first couple eperiences I dosed too much bc i didn't have a mg scale n one of the experiences kinda shook me a little...but i came bk im ok...wasn't eager to smoke again for a few weeks n started small n slow once i stepped bk to the plate... Ill dive deep again im jus taken my time...
Its truly an amazing medicine n im thankful that its part of my life...
Happy n safe travels my friend...👽✌
 
My top ten reasons I go back, in no particular order.

1. Fun and excitement
2. Spiritual work
3. Curiousity
4. Facing my fears
5. Stupidity (a glutton for punishment)
6. Practice of dying
7. Chasing the dragon (hope for further enlightenment next trip)
8. Learn
9. Share
10. Expand

Smoalk Moar! :thumb_up:
 
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