Thank you

That expression conveyed by that smiley face is simply not enough, the energies I felt during your amazing expression of your self will resound for eternity within my own being and without.

Not nearly as aged as you are,  however, my advice is simply to look at the ego as, how another member of this forum put it, just a feedback loop that seems like reality.

I can't offer you much information as regards your entheogenic aims.

I think using simple words in the moment, such as

Still.

Drop.

Look.

Peace.

Be.

If you utter the word Be, with all of your intesnity as a human being, at the moment of death, It should offer enough energy to ride all the way to infinity, and beyond.

In the immortal words of shakespeare, "More than my all... Is nothing."