hey RedCat welcome to The Nexus ,

interesting intro , and a very interesting life you have led RedCat , i can relate to a gun being waved at your face , has happened to me a few times however i've never been shot , thankfully so.....

i would ask you you Sir , to look into Ayahuasca , since growing mushrooms can take some time , even syrian rue seeds are easier to order online ......

Jin