Yes, a warm welcome to the Nexus Red Cat.  There are quite a few of us here in our 50s, and at least one in their 60s, so it's great to have someone leading the way for the septs.  A very civilised and generally adult place to be among like-minded friends.

Like everyone else, I found your intro compelling.  I smiled at your reaction to imminent death...when it seemed like I was just about to die, I remember an overwhelming feeling (for the reasons you mentioned) of "oh, thank god for that..."...which was not quite what I was expecting! :?:

How lovely to be experiencing psychedelics for the first time, I hope it greatly enhances the time you have left here.