This forum is exactly what I am looking for. I have so many questions, I am a fairly new traveler and need a community like this to help me along my journeys!

I am very new to dmt, although I have been smoking it for over a year. I find the only time I have ever had enough courage to actually try and break through is when on MDMA. I respect dmt enormously, I'm not scared of it but I completely respect it's power.

MDMA puts me in the perfect mindset, the only time I feel enough courage to take on an experience like this. I have never experienced something so beautiful in my entire life. I was literally in tears after my first real experience.

I have never been so thankful, the love I felt was unexplainable. I have so many questions.

Every experience I've had, I've never lost my sense of self. I am always completely aware of who I am and able to think very clearly. I always smoke alone in complete darkness listening to OTT - Queen of All Everything blasting as loud as possible in my ears. [MEDIA=youtube]HnhuZ_p-dbQ[/MEDIA]

I've done this 3 times now, every time I was on MDMA. I've tried smoking completely sober and I just can't do it. I have so much fear, I just don't have the courage.

I have so many questions and would love to share my experiences with the community. I still can not believe what I have experienced. I have never been so thankful in my entire life.

I am very happy I have found the nexus.