Hey, I'm really bad with saying stuff about myself (which I guess can be a good thing in the grand scheme of things) so I'm not entirely sure what to write, so I'll just blurt out what comes to me haha.
I'm currently a first-year Linguistics student in London. Not really a fan of being in education or of any kind of oppressive structure in life, but it's kind of a necessary evil I guess ;p I eventually want to live the rest of my life travelling around the world speaking on Language and its effects on culture and consciousness, learning and sharing the entire time. I'm not really into a lot of stuff - I really like good manga, getting back into my oldskool RPGs, and I love getting new music from different people who know the ins and outs of really appreciable subgenres, especially minimal and chiiiiiiiill music
My main thing is to basically be around good vibes, chillin with my friends and meeting and talking to people who are enthusiastic to share their ideas, 'little' or 'big'; the diversity of Mind is perhaps one of my biggest interests.
I've been a lot more spiritually-inclined recently due to a number of mishaps that've occured the last year or two. I felt my spirit kept getting challenged and I'm currently crawling out of a place of apathy and misguidance on the part of my somewhat corrupted rationality. Thus, I've been following my intuition with what I do, what I eat and generally how I go about my life, and to be honest, despite being in the very very very early stages, it seems to be yieling up and down, but promisingly positive results I don't disobey my irrational actions atm, whether it be walking a certain way around town, whether I wear a hat a certain way in a certain place or even with whom I feel or act upon magnetism. I've been trying out a lot of meditation recently, whether it be sitting in my room and shutting off my mind or even sitting there just playing simple chords on my guitar intuitively.
With this, I've been thinking about trying my own DMT extraction and perhaps making extraction a project in my life, at least for the time being. I've tried (smoked) DMT a number of times before; my close friend has been extracting it for a while and would often share it with me, and I often doubted it's spiritual faculties. At the time however, I didn't fully understand the meaning of spirit, if at all there ever was one. I had labelled everything I came accross and never entertained the idea of Namelessness, Formlessness, Is, Are, Am, . The last few months in particular I've felt a change or some kind of shift, a sense that something in me has changed, is changing, or has been changing all along and my reason and my ego have been silencing my inuition of it. I feel a readiness to become, or unbecome, or more importantly, to be and be at peace.
When I first tried DMT, it was melted onto changa - I was in a bit of a shock. I didn't breakthrough as much as I have done by this time, but it was the first psychedelic experience I'd ever had (I hadn't and still haven't tried any other entheogens or potent psychedelics... yet!). The friend who shared it with me had warned me of its potency but I definitely wasn't expecting something like that. Open-eyed, the walls asserted their existence and the paper cranes on the ceiling wanted to play, nothing I wasn't expecting. But after my fourth inhalation, the room turned into a series of cloggs that made up a room that was breaking through, and the cloggs kind of told me to prepare myself. Then I saw a Wizard Sage bow before me and I fell through a portal into his hat. Looking back with my current mentality, what happened next is why I (and I'm sure many or all of you agree at least to an extent) believe DMT and other hallucinogens give and ARE direct insight into our spirits and Spirit. In brief, I became part of the tunnel and watched as this giant worm-like creature made up of faces of indescribable entities morphed according to my thoughts (I'm not sure how its shape and my thoughts interlinked, but they did). I began asking questions, and a new tunnel would appear. I then became anxious however and started asking more, and doubting the DMT in general. My mind then showed me a picture of an Ape fading away which I assumed to mean something like 'You are young and inexperienced, we will meet again another time when you have grown'. I then apologised and accepting it's leave. At first I didn't think there was a spiritual aspect to DMT, it just reacts to my thoughts and feelings. But now I've come to realise that our spirits are our very internal being, our psyche, our unconscious, everything that makes us up. I'm now intregued to meditate with DMT, and to see how much more I can learn about my spirit and possibly Spirit. My last DMT experience was a number of months ago now, and I feel I've grown in many respects since then.
Not sure if this is classed a really bad trip report, but I thought I'd throw in a summary of my first DMT experience on here! ;p Anyway, like I say, I'm pretty bad at describing myself, but hopefully I'll be posting stuff quite soon and you'll get to know bits about me that way! Cheers for reading, and I'll probably chat to you soon! Love and bananas, keep kosy! X
I'm currently a first-year Linguistics student in London. Not really a fan of being in education or of any kind of oppressive structure in life, but it's kind of a necessary evil I guess ;p I eventually want to live the rest of my life travelling around the world speaking on Language and its effects on culture and consciousness, learning and sharing the entire time. I'm not really into a lot of stuff - I really like good manga, getting back into my oldskool RPGs, and I love getting new music from different people who know the ins and outs of really appreciable subgenres, especially minimal and chiiiiiiiill music
My main thing is to basically be around good vibes, chillin with my friends and meeting and talking to people who are enthusiastic to share their ideas, 'little' or 'big'; the diversity of Mind is perhaps one of my biggest interests.I've been a lot more spiritually-inclined recently due to a number of mishaps that've occured the last year or two. I felt my spirit kept getting challenged and I'm currently crawling out of a place of apathy and misguidance on the part of my somewhat corrupted rationality. Thus, I've been following my intuition with what I do, what I eat and generally how I go about my life, and to be honest, despite being in the very very very early stages, it seems to be yieling up and down, but promisingly positive results
I don't disobey my irrational actions atm, whether it be walking a certain way around town, whether I wear a hat a certain way in a certain place or even with whom I feel or act upon magnetism. I've been trying out a lot of meditation recently, whether it be sitting in my room and shutting off my mind or even sitting there just playing simple chords on my guitar intuitively. With this, I've been thinking about trying my own DMT extraction and perhaps making extraction a project in my life, at least for the time being. I've tried (smoked) DMT a number of times before; my close friend has been extracting it for a while and would often share it with me, and I often doubted it's spiritual faculties. At the time however, I didn't fully understand the meaning of spirit, if at all there ever was one. I had labelled everything I came accross and never entertained the idea of Namelessness, Formlessness, Is, Are, Am, . The last few months in particular I've felt a change or some kind of shift, a sense that something in me has changed, is changing, or has been changing all along and my reason and my ego have been silencing my inuition of it. I feel a readiness to become, or unbecome, or more importantly, to be and be at peace.
When I first tried DMT, it was melted onto changa - I was in a bit of a shock. I didn't breakthrough as much as I have done by this time, but it was the first psychedelic experience I'd ever had (I hadn't and still haven't tried any other entheogens or potent psychedelics... yet!). The friend who shared it with me had warned me of its potency but I definitely wasn't expecting something like that. Open-eyed, the walls asserted their existence and the paper cranes on the ceiling wanted to play, nothing I wasn't expecting. But after my fourth inhalation, the room turned into a series of cloggs that made up a room that was breaking through, and the cloggs kind of told me to prepare myself. Then I saw a Wizard Sage bow before me and I fell through a portal into his hat. Looking back with my current mentality, what happened next is why I (and I'm sure many or all of you agree at least to an extent) believe DMT and other hallucinogens give and ARE direct insight into our spirits and Spirit. In brief, I became part of the tunnel and watched as this giant worm-like creature made up of faces of indescribable entities morphed according to my thoughts (I'm not sure how its shape and my thoughts interlinked, but they did). I began asking questions, and a new tunnel would appear. I then became anxious however and started asking more, and doubting the DMT in general. My mind then showed me a picture of an Ape fading away which I assumed to mean something like 'You are young and inexperienced, we will meet again another time when you have grown'. I then apologised and accepting it's leave. At first I didn't think there was a spiritual aspect to DMT, it just reacts to my thoughts and feelings. But now I've come to realise that our spirits are our very internal being, our psyche, our unconscious, everything that makes us up. I'm now intregued to meditate with DMT, and to see how much more I can learn about my spirit and possibly Spirit. My last DMT experience was a number of months ago now, and I feel I've grown in many respects since then.
Not sure if this is classed a really bad trip report, but I thought I'd throw in a summary of my first DMT experience on here! ;p Anyway, like I say, I'm pretty bad at describing myself, but hopefully I'll be posting stuff quite soon and you'll get to know bits about me that way! Cheers for reading, and I'll probably chat to you soon! Love and bananas, keep kosy! X
