The_Shaman
Rising Star
well, SWIM told me this " I had my first negative (sort of) experience the other night with some Changa. I had had a fairly bad day, which ended in a fight with the GF , I was angry and disappointed and thought maybe I could find some answers in the spirit realm.
My GF was gone for the night and so I went to the bedroom, which was honestly a mess, I always read about taking the time to clean and organize your space ,well in my current state i thought " yada yada yada..." and I have read here about going in with a clear head free of worries, "yada yada yada...."
I guess after nothing but overall positive experiences, I thought I could handle myself fairly well , so load up the bong and plop on the unmade bed , did a quick 3 min meditation to slow my heart rate and then I hit 2 good times, the smoke was thick, I really hit it.
Immediately it was very aggressive , swirling colors and for the first time it became various scenes of life , which were playing out in my mind, at a very high speed these visions of myself interacting with old girlfriends and friends, and various other scenarios that I cant even re-call. At one point the visions took on an erotic nature. Now , this sounds kinda cool, but it wasnt.
Now while the visions became so colorful and swirling and would speed by quickly , before each vision changed, a little hand would come out and flicker at me, almost like a tease , like giving me a raspberry. just one hand, off the edge of each scene. would flicker as the scene changed, it definitely felt like i was being teased.
I tried to steer the vision and that's when it became scary, it became very violent and overall everything was a reddish tint , the visions all morphing into one another I found myself spiraling downwards...and then BAM!!!!
a Huge bang in my head, like someone slammed a door very hard right in my face! It was a Huge crash in my mind that I opened my eyes immediately, and I know the sound was only in my head , as my dogs were all around me and were sleeping still. It was earth shaking this crash , really stunned me, I was like "WTF was that!!!!"
so I closed my eyes again to get back into my trance, but it was gone, all of it, not even a sparkle of my trip remained, it was actually like someone just turned off the switch. How is that even possible?, a moment earlier I was lost in colors and spinning visions, and then GONE with a huge Brain Bomb BANG. completely gone, no afterglow, no good feelings , just Gone.
It shook me , because that was a scary way to end a fairly unpleasant trip.
Lesson learned: Dont try to journey when your current head space is clouded with anger and spite, it doesn't mix well with spice or a bit of AYA for that matter.
-Shaman
My GF was gone for the night and so I went to the bedroom, which was honestly a mess, I always read about taking the time to clean and organize your space ,well in my current state i thought " yada yada yada..." and I have read here about going in with a clear head free of worries, "yada yada yada...."
I guess after nothing but overall positive experiences, I thought I could handle myself fairly well , so load up the bong and plop on the unmade bed , did a quick 3 min meditation to slow my heart rate and then I hit 2 good times, the smoke was thick, I really hit it.
Immediately it was very aggressive , swirling colors and for the first time it became various scenes of life , which were playing out in my mind, at a very high speed these visions of myself interacting with old girlfriends and friends, and various other scenarios that I cant even re-call. At one point the visions took on an erotic nature. Now , this sounds kinda cool, but it wasnt.
Now while the visions became so colorful and swirling and would speed by quickly , before each vision changed, a little hand would come out and flicker at me, almost like a tease , like giving me a raspberry. just one hand, off the edge of each scene. would flicker as the scene changed, it definitely felt like i was being teased.
I tried to steer the vision and that's when it became scary, it became very violent and overall everything was a reddish tint , the visions all morphing into one another I found myself spiraling downwards...and then BAM!!!!
a Huge bang in my head, like someone slammed a door very hard right in my face! It was a Huge crash in my mind that I opened my eyes immediately, and I know the sound was only in my head , as my dogs were all around me and were sleeping still. It was earth shaking this crash , really stunned me, I was like "WTF was that!!!!"
so I closed my eyes again to get back into my trance, but it was gone, all of it, not even a sparkle of my trip remained, it was actually like someone just turned off the switch. How is that even possible?, a moment earlier I was lost in colors and spinning visions, and then GONE with a huge Brain Bomb BANG. completely gone, no afterglow, no good feelings , just Gone.
It shook me , because that was a scary way to end a fairly unpleasant trip.
Lesson learned: Dont try to journey when your current head space is clouded with anger and spite, it doesn't mix well with spice or a bit of AYA for that matter.
-Shaman
