Pup Tentacle said:
More importantly, what do YOU say to this?
I'm not sure, I'm still trying to decide. The voices that say "You need a shaman" are coming from a place of fear--fear that I might go crazy or get infected with an evil spirit, and also a place of respect for the origin of this plant technology.
The "You don't need a shaman" come from a voice that is about self-empowerment and courage.
I went to Peru last year and visited three shamans. I was going to them purportedly to heal my rheumatoid arthritis (I believe now the mission is much deeper than that). The first one was not my type. The second two were a couple. They both claimed to be shamans. The woman gringo was a very unpleasant person. Her Shipibo husband, however, was a really really chill dude who made me feel very safe. Unfortunately, the woman's ego kinda screwed things up and I didn't get to go deep with the medicine there. But I will always remember that man as the real deal. My bullshit meter is reeeally good (I detect it in 99% of the people I meet) and this guy was just... chill, mature, funny, responsible, etc. And valued not-knowing more than knowing, in the context of working with mother Ayahuasca.
Did I need him? Perhaps "need" is too strong a word. But I definitely felt like he would have made my experiences safer, smoother, and more productive. I would even have dreams or half-sleep states in which I felt his presence, just sitting at the foot of my bed, or crouching next to me. One time, "he" gently touched a specific place on my back and it was healing, heart-opening, revitalizing. This guy was the real deal. His singing in ceremony was other-worldly, and full of powerful compassion and dedication. I even felt this sitting in a ceremony in which I had not drunk any medicine.
I'm not like, worshipping him at all. I consider him more of a friend than a higher-up. Someone else said it here, I think... some "shamans" consider themselves simply "medicine carriers." I think he secretly thought of himself as that, and perhaps with some hefty experience.
So, do I need a shaman? I dunno. I'm in a very hard place in my life right now (I can barely walk, I hang out with friends now like once a month, I'm addicted to the computer, it's fricking FREEZING outside...) so I am worried that without a shaman as an anchor or guide, I might slip into my own world in a bad way. I don't even have the trees to talk to right now.
On the other hand, I consider myself pretty good with listening and being in dialog with the plants I take. I feel like I can take the lessons as they come.
I think if I were to have a shaman, it would have to be a VERY special shaman, not just any guy/gal. I say this because my case is very unusual--the aya seems to be taking 3 days to kick in, and when it does, it directly addresses my joint inflammation.
Sorry for the rant, but I figured I would explain what inspired the initial question.