Drank 5 ounces of tea made from 18" of T. bridgesii cv "Jiimz". I got high. Very very high. Too high really. Dont know if I ever need to get that high again. Drank the tea 7 hours ago. Still very very high. Felt like "I" was completely deconstructed. Like "I" was just soft mush held together by skin, talking to itself, realizing that nothing matters except for family and love. I saw how we are all growing old and dying. Spent way too much of this life worrying about nonsense. Need to stop doing that.
Much love.
Edit:
10 hours now since drinking the tea. It surprised me how hard and fast it hit. Had drank this same tea a couple of months before and it did not hit this hard. Drank this tea after fasting for 12 hours. Feels like that really intensified things. Felt it starting to come on before the cup was even finished. This is a strong trip. Still pretty strong now, though much less intense.
Took notes early on. Visuals kicked in at 80 minutes after starting to drink. They got strong and lasted strong until the time of the first report, when could just start to see clearly enough to type. For awhile everything was covered in patterns. The whole time has been ebbing and flowing in waves. Saw nautilus shell patterns, rainbow colored. Color hues kept washing out and changing before my eyes. It was strong. Felt very exposed and vulnerable. Couldnt stand up straight for awhile, just kept leaning. Had the feeling that this is too much, like I had crossed a point that is probably better to not cross too many times in life or you might not come back. But in the end love grounded everything and brought it back to solid. Felt a lot of love for my elderly dad. It was sad to feel the weight of his time passing by. And mine too. Wanted to stay with loved ones alive in our bodies for as long as possible. Saw that everything was kissed by life and death at the same time, like different sides of the same coin. This life is such an incredible gift. Need to live in the power of that reality much more.
So I'm still tripping now. Still tripping pretty good. Its going to go on for awhile still. Might still do one or two more updates to help keep this all in perspective.
Much love.
Edit:
13 hours now since drinking the tea. Into the long, slow burn of the second half of this trip. Body is feeling much more relaxed and back to normal. Just ate my first meal since the tea. But the headspace still has that unmistakable feel of a cactus trip. No visuals at all now. Just a different than normal perspective and a "heavy" "cactus" feel to my brain. I expect to keep feeling this way until I go to sleep in a few hours. Should feel back to normal in the morning, for the most part.
This trip surprised me in its strength. Was expecting it to be a solid, but not overly strong trip. It turned out to be very strong. Bridgesii has never let me down when it comes to strength. I keep learning to have more and more respect for Bridgesii everytime I consume it. Its just a very dependable psychedelic, as long as you use enough and dont botch the prep.
I hope that this report can be of benefit to anyone who is trying to better understand these cacti. They are beautiful and powerful plants. I keep being reminded that there is something unpredictable about these cactus trips. They dont seem able to be constrained by expectations or pinned down to repeatable outcomes. Every trip is its own journey, full of its own surprises.
Much love.
Much love.
Edit:
10 hours now since drinking the tea. It surprised me how hard and fast it hit. Had drank this same tea a couple of months before and it did not hit this hard. Drank this tea after fasting for 12 hours. Feels like that really intensified things. Felt it starting to come on before the cup was even finished. This is a strong trip. Still pretty strong now, though much less intense.
Took notes early on. Visuals kicked in at 80 minutes after starting to drink. They got strong and lasted strong until the time of the first report, when could just start to see clearly enough to type. For awhile everything was covered in patterns. The whole time has been ebbing and flowing in waves. Saw nautilus shell patterns, rainbow colored. Color hues kept washing out and changing before my eyes. It was strong. Felt very exposed and vulnerable. Couldnt stand up straight for awhile, just kept leaning. Had the feeling that this is too much, like I had crossed a point that is probably better to not cross too many times in life or you might not come back. But in the end love grounded everything and brought it back to solid. Felt a lot of love for my elderly dad. It was sad to feel the weight of his time passing by. And mine too. Wanted to stay with loved ones alive in our bodies for as long as possible. Saw that everything was kissed by life and death at the same time, like different sides of the same coin. This life is such an incredible gift. Need to live in the power of that reality much more.
So I'm still tripping now. Still tripping pretty good. Its going to go on for awhile still. Might still do one or two more updates to help keep this all in perspective.
Much love.
Edit:
13 hours now since drinking the tea. Into the long, slow burn of the second half of this trip. Body is feeling much more relaxed and back to normal. Just ate my first meal since the tea. But the headspace still has that unmistakable feel of a cactus trip. No visuals at all now. Just a different than normal perspective and a "heavy" "cactus" feel to my brain. I expect to keep feeling this way until I go to sleep in a few hours. Should feel back to normal in the morning, for the most part.
This trip surprised me in its strength. Was expecting it to be a solid, but not overly strong trip. It turned out to be very strong. Bridgesii has never let me down when it comes to strength. I keep learning to have more and more respect for Bridgesii everytime I consume it. Its just a very dependable psychedelic, as long as you use enough and dont botch the prep.
I hope that this report can be of benefit to anyone who is trying to better understand these cacti. They are beautiful and powerful plants. I keep being reminded that there is something unpredictable about these cactus trips. They dont seem able to be constrained by expectations or pinned down to repeatable outcomes. Every trip is its own journey, full of its own surprises.
Much love.
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