tayzer
Rising Star
2nd journey
1st breakthrough dose
~50mg dabbed
I had only had a small taste of DMT before this. At that time, I didn't know anything about dosing, and just smoked what I could roll into a dab of BHO. Probably about...15mg. I didn't break through.
BUT I incorrectly assumed that this even counted as a precursor to a 50mg trip.
So one day I took .1g, and I split into two neat halves. It took me a few days to work up the courage to do it, but one night I decided it was the night.
I put on some quiet tunes, smoked a bowl to calm my nerves, and sat down on my couch. Loaded the dose up onto a piece of folded parchment, and dumped it onto my hot nail. (Domeless quartz)
I held my breath, and leaned back...it was almost instant regret. Not "regret" per say, but for a lack of a better word. It was an "oh shit" moment. I did not realize what I was getting into lol.
I felt my jaw fall open, and a moan escape my face. I had fleeting thoughts, but it's like as soon as I had them they were deemed trivial and whisked away...
For example...Human me: "wait am I pissing myself rn?" Inner me: "doesn't matter, you're going to die" Urinating on yourself < Dying
I was fighting to hold on through the come up. I felt like I was in a raging river, hanging for life onto a weak branch. Finally I couldn't take anymore and let go...metaphorically. I was pretty sure this letting go was going to be the death of me. But it was the only option.
I felt a single tear travel from my eye to my chin and spring off my face into a chain of itself, and then I was whisked out to the proverbial sea...
I had every thought possible, from beginning to end, until I was nothing.
The geometry, the symbols and numbers, the cycling. The cyclical nature of it all stood out to me greatly. Spinning, twisting, fractal spirals all the way up and down. I couldn't even take it all in. It was beautiful but so MUCH it was excruciating. Molecular agony.
I don't know how much time passed, maybe a few minutes, before my dog came along and licked my face.
I shot away from the sudden touch, not even recognizing it as a tongue on my cheek, but it brought me instant joy. It was like I burst up from the depths of that sea in an explosion of love and light.
I smiled and "ohhed and awed" at the good feelings for a while until all of the sudden it was like the rotation of the spiral fractals reversed and I was going the other direction.
I realized this was the latter side of my journey. I said aloud "no! I need to remember!"
The vibe of the trip turned taunting, secretive... I knew I wouldn't remember the vastness of information that I just learned, for I was shown not taught...
The overall lesson I took from this experience, looking back, was a lesson in ego. I apologized several times coming down (to no one) and said thank you several times (to no one.) I feel like I thought I knew so much, then I intruded into this space, and was really given what I asked for. It was very humbling.
If ya can't take the heat stay out of the kitchen...I will be infinitely more respectful entering this space in the future.
1st breakthrough dose
~50mg dabbed
I had only had a small taste of DMT before this. At that time, I didn't know anything about dosing, and just smoked what I could roll into a dab of BHO. Probably about...15mg. I didn't break through.
BUT I incorrectly assumed that this even counted as a precursor to a 50mg trip.
So one day I took .1g, and I split into two neat halves. It took me a few days to work up the courage to do it, but one night I decided it was the night.
I put on some quiet tunes, smoked a bowl to calm my nerves, and sat down on my couch. Loaded the dose up onto a piece of folded parchment, and dumped it onto my hot nail. (Domeless quartz)
I held my breath, and leaned back...it was almost instant regret. Not "regret" per say, but for a lack of a better word. It was an "oh shit" moment. I did not realize what I was getting into lol.
I felt my jaw fall open, and a moan escape my face. I had fleeting thoughts, but it's like as soon as I had them they were deemed trivial and whisked away...
For example...Human me: "wait am I pissing myself rn?" Inner me: "doesn't matter, you're going to die" Urinating on yourself < Dying
I was fighting to hold on through the come up. I felt like I was in a raging river, hanging for life onto a weak branch. Finally I couldn't take anymore and let go...metaphorically. I was pretty sure this letting go was going to be the death of me. But it was the only option.
I felt a single tear travel from my eye to my chin and spring off my face into a chain of itself, and then I was whisked out to the proverbial sea...
I had every thought possible, from beginning to end, until I was nothing.
The geometry, the symbols and numbers, the cycling. The cyclical nature of it all stood out to me greatly. Spinning, twisting, fractal spirals all the way up and down. I couldn't even take it all in. It was beautiful but so MUCH it was excruciating. Molecular agony.
I don't know how much time passed, maybe a few minutes, before my dog came along and licked my face.
I shot away from the sudden touch, not even recognizing it as a tongue on my cheek, but it brought me instant joy. It was like I burst up from the depths of that sea in an explosion of love and light.
I smiled and "ohhed and awed" at the good feelings for a while until all of the sudden it was like the rotation of the spiral fractals reversed and I was going the other direction.
I realized this was the latter side of my journey. I said aloud "no! I need to remember!"
The vibe of the trip turned taunting, secretive... I knew I wouldn't remember the vastness of information that I just learned, for I was shown not taught...
The overall lesson I took from this experience, looking back, was a lesson in ego. I apologized several times coming down (to no one) and said thank you several times (to no one.) I feel like I thought I knew so much, then I intruded into this space, and was really given what I asked for. It was very humbling.
If ya can't take the heat stay out of the kitchen...I will be infinitely more respectful entering this space in the future.
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