2nd DMT experience...Denied Breakthrough?

[Al-Wasi]

I expected DMT to terrify me as the past countless trips I'd had on LSD had me almost swearing off psychedelicsseekver. I have to much though and I want to experience a breakthrough before I die and have committed to such. After a test run earlier that night I decided I would try to make it happen. I loaded the machine, told my girl to tell me I had to take the third hit as I knew I'd be reluctant.

By the time I had exhaled the second I was overwhelmed. She reminds me I have to take it and trys to help me with the flame but its all too disorienting and I give up. Reality begins to fragment in geometry as it had earlier And I submit and close my eyes. My whole being is overcome by intense rapid vibrations I can feel down to what seems to be the atomic level which I can now perceive. All sensation is felt by my whole being, sound,sight,feeling,its as if I have a new sense. The same geometric patterns that where present before my eyes close are there seemingly about to tear apart whatever this is I'm experiencing throughout my whole being. Its as if although I see the patterns ripping away visually my body is doing the same thing in sync with my vision.

Its too much I open my eyes to see if I'm still here. I am and I see my girl for a few seconds at which point the same patterns erupt about to tear my world apart at the seams. I submit and close my eyes again. A grey dome appears and maniacal laughter erupts. The only word to describe the laugh is elfish. Symbols are spewing out of this dome rapidly and although I didn't hear it nor see this elf or whatever it was its as though its communication was still perceived and it told me "this is what you wanted" . this continues for a few minutes and gently subsides. I open my eyes to see reality now appear as I'm in a cartoon or virtual reality. I'm amazed at what just happened and how different it was then other trips from.other chemicals. It never Gave me the fear I've always had on real intense LSD trips.

I'm grateful for the experience after and talk about it for hours. Wishing I could have taken that last time. Looking back it seems as though I was there but I was denied entrance. I don't know if this elf being denied me entrance. Or my holding on too reality to hard and checking to see if my normal life was still there prevented it.

All I know is this stuff is way.more then I expected and I'm hoping I can find a way to just let go, take the third hit, and let it take me where it can.

Any input will be greatly valued.

 

[Chimp Z]

Met a lot of people interested in a "breakthrough". Don't get caught up in trying to ascertain something, it will come in different ways as an oracle giving you what you need.
What you just described was a pretty enmeshed DMT experience for me at least and I've had many with Mimosa, Acacia and Phalaris.
Don't expect to have a near death experience every time.
I feel most of the more chaotic sort of "breakthroughs" occur when it catches you off guard.

Always glad to be shined on by the stellar lights travelling beyond time.
Whatever information it lends i do my best to work into life regardless of the novel intensity.
Personally have experienced a couple denied "blast offs" but it's all good, your space ship just ran out of gas.
Time to fuel up. :thumb_up:

 

[Global]

It took me a few months to get my first breakthrough, so don't get too turned off that you couldn't do it on your second try.

 

[darklordsson]

I agree with Global here, dont get discouraged. It will happen when you least expect it and very quickly too:shock: . Takes some technique to vape properly but practice makes perfect.It took me a bunch of tries to get my first breakthrough, first one was beautiful, elegant and soothing. The second took one bong load of changa, for one, my entire being melted into everything and felt like i was dissapearing, or becoming a singularity, scaired the crap out of me. Its very very different every time, unpredictable, for overcoming that fear of getting to the other side, jus tell yourself " Im going somewhere, I dont know where, but the Universe will take care of me for the better, and I'll be right back in 10 min." When I smoke, I invision a warm cosmic blanket washing over my being as the come up starts. Helps me, but everyones different. Just dont forget friend, the Universe is very kind and wants us to find the right way, always, even if it means going through some traumatic experiences:? , its usully for the better.:thumb_up: But, I like changa, had the best luck with it, and some of which felt like cureses, but take them in a way you can learn from. "Theres nothing to fear but fear itself."

Gods speed! Fellow cosmonaught!:thumb_up:

 

[Al-Wasi]

I'm not getting discouraged just wondering if maybe my technique is what prevented breaking through or if I was denied by this entity.

I'm just beginning with this wonderful molecule and look forward to where it takes me in the future.

Thanks for the input I appreciate it

 

[darklordsson]

Im actully saving up for a vapor genie, Ive heard nothing but good things from them and people here on the Nexus, waiting till i get paid, gotta get paid! Then the investment starts, I had the problem with blasting off because i wasnt vaping right, but changa works, also a good vaperizor for sure. This place is filled with interesting knowlage and plentiful with it check out the wiki section, plenty of brain candy!

Happy Travels!:d :thumb_up:

 

[Chimp Z]

Would just recommend enjoy the ride and work with it and you'll be fine.
Just don't smoke it 50 times in a few months.

Moderation, the integration is the best part.

 

[Global]

I'm not getting discouraged just wondering if maybe my technique is what prevented breaking through or if I was denied by this entity.

I'm just beginning with this wonderful molecule and look forward to where it takes me in the future.

Thanks for the input I appreciate it

If I had to guess, it would be from improper technique. I would say that about 90% of problems getting into hyperspace would have to do with the efficiency with which you can administer yourself DMT. The more optimally you can do this, the more "energy" you allot to hyperspace and its denizens to show you the works.