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Rising Star
Okay so just getting back....bear with me....
Quiet house, single candle lit....none of this mattered.
Committed to closing eyes and going with it...again...didn't mater.
Opened with CEV of a strange ....can only be described as "organic" shaped mass of shifting light....an "elf"?
Then I was in a room....several alien entities were present...they were busy...the whole scene felt rushed like an emergency room visit.
There was no "tunnel" or anything like that which I can remember....I was simply there.
Again they were definitely doing something to my head. One of the entities walked to the far side of the room to get something. I realized that it changed it's form and gender to be female....I assume so that I would be more comfortable with what it was doing. It seemed like a huge syringe that was put in my head...no pain...I didn't "feel" it...I'm not sure if they were putting something in or taking something out...like a sample....or simply removing the excess spice from my brain to send me back.
Definitely the same lot as last time....only this time they were not on some in between barely visible spectrum. This time I was on the same spectrum as they were.
They seemed less...creepy...more benevolent this time....again it felt an awful lot like an emergency room visit with everyone rushing about doing things in a very specific manner that I did not understand...and they did seem as though they were trying to "help" me.
I felt the "marble" and made special effort to affirm breathing....the sound echoed and reverberated in a strange way...like a flange effect.
They still seemed prepared or as if waiting on me to be there. I'm not sure if the rush is to get us back or to gather as much data while we are there.
I'm not sure if this is what is considered a "breakthrough" by the community but I can say this...I was there....not sort of here and sort of there...but THERE....My eyes fluttered open at one point and I sort of saw the room I was "supposed" to be in....then it didn't seem to matter if they were open or closed...I was there and only there again.
This was still only a 15 mg dose....There may have been the slightest amount left from my wife's previous 10 mg dose but couldn't have been very much as she saw a metal room with at least one entity, so I'm assuming she got the best of that dose.
All I can say is WTH???....15 mg leading to what I have to assume is a full on breakthrough?
My only "gripe" is that there is not the same "glow"...but still...the entire experience lasted approx 7 mins...at least thats when I was back enough to see a time on the clock. 30 mins past that point and it's almost completely normal other than the memory of "WTF just happened?"
Don't know about making that jump from 15mg to 30mg now....15-20 seems like about as much as I need....will say try 20 next time to ensure that it was a "little bit left in there" that made such a HUGE difference.
Feedback?....is that what a "breakthrough" is like?....or is there more?
BTW...SWIM died and left me these notes to try and interpret.....C.O.D....Drowning...Go figure
Quiet house, single candle lit....none of this mattered.
Committed to closing eyes and going with it...again...didn't mater.
Opened with CEV of a strange ....can only be described as "organic" shaped mass of shifting light....an "elf"?
Then I was in a room....several alien entities were present...they were busy...the whole scene felt rushed like an emergency room visit.
There was no "tunnel" or anything like that which I can remember....I was simply there.
Again they were definitely doing something to my head. One of the entities walked to the far side of the room to get something. I realized that it changed it's form and gender to be female....I assume so that I would be more comfortable with what it was doing. It seemed like a huge syringe that was put in my head...no pain...I didn't "feel" it...I'm not sure if they were putting something in or taking something out...like a sample....or simply removing the excess spice from my brain to send me back.
Definitely the same lot as last time....only this time they were not on some in between barely visible spectrum. This time I was on the same spectrum as they were.
They seemed less...creepy...more benevolent this time....again it felt an awful lot like an emergency room visit with everyone rushing about doing things in a very specific manner that I did not understand...and they did seem as though they were trying to "help" me.
I felt the "marble" and made special effort to affirm breathing....the sound echoed and reverberated in a strange way...like a flange effect.
They still seemed prepared or as if waiting on me to be there. I'm not sure if the rush is to get us back or to gather as much data while we are there.
I'm not sure if this is what is considered a "breakthrough" by the community but I can say this...I was there....not sort of here and sort of there...but THERE....My eyes fluttered open at one point and I sort of saw the room I was "supposed" to be in....then it didn't seem to matter if they were open or closed...I was there and only there again.
This was still only a 15 mg dose....There may have been the slightest amount left from my wife's previous 10 mg dose but couldn't have been very much as she saw a metal room with at least one entity, so I'm assuming she got the best of that dose.
All I can say is WTH???....15 mg leading to what I have to assume is a full on breakthrough?
My only "gripe" is that there is not the same "glow"...but still...the entire experience lasted approx 7 mins...at least thats when I was back enough to see a time on the clock. 30 mins past that point and it's almost completely normal other than the memory of "WTF just happened?"
Don't know about making that jump from 15mg to 30mg now....15-20 seems like about as much as I need....will say try 20 next time to ensure that it was a "little bit left in there" that made such a HUGE difference.
Feedback?....is that what a "breakthrough" is like?....or is there more?
BTW...SWIM died and left me these notes to try and interpret.....C.O.D....Drowning...Go figure