Blind_Goat
Esteemed member
PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: anxious
(physical condition) Set: good
Setting (location): home
time of day: 10 am, daylight
recent drug use: coffee
last meal: 8 am, breakfast
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 76 kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: novice
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT
Dose(s): Vaporesso (Sky solo) with 700mg DMT fot 2ml Jack Herer Terpenes
Method of administration: vaporized
EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:01
Duration: all day
First effects: A force in my body, very shy visual distortions, HIGH anxiety
Peak: T=0:01 - T= 0.05
Come down: it was very slow... i can't specify
Baseline:
Intensity (overall): 1 = Slightly
Evaluation / notes: 3 out of 5
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2
Unplesantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 0.5
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 2 points (3 days)
Afterglow: 0
REPORT
Owner of a restless and undisciplined mind, I sought DMT for more than visions or a profound experience, but an opportunity to grow mentally. Already in my first uses, I noticed not simply my cowardice or anxiety, but the uncontrolled mind, a ship that wants to travel in a certain direction in the midst of a storm, and that as soon as it touches the water, quickly regrets having entered it. As soon as I started seeing fractals or felt the strength coming, I despaired and tried at all costs to return to sobriety.
Thus, as already known by the wisest and most experienced, set and setting are important, however the element of the undisciplined mind (perhaps belonging to the set, but not completely) can bring a lot of pain and suffering in a psychedelic experience to the extent that a mind inclined always giving in to quick pleasure, and the torrent of thoughts that always invades us will not survive well in the powerful chaos of DMT's current of thoughts.
Our society trains us like this: short smartphone videos give us immediate dopamine spikes, however, unlike old photographs or films, they are not made to be remembered. Such videos should be administered like a drug, as they excite the most primal and immediate instincts: sex, curiosity, the longing for more. Our entire society is organized around rapid use, small and immediate enjoyment and disposal.
Thus, anyone who becomes addicted to masturbation quickly loses the great pleasure and peak of intense, non-compulsive sex. The more often we give in to immediate pleasure, the faster we exhaust the pleasure itself.
So, I believe that I have and I have some "crutches": compulsions and falls to immediate pleasure that paradoxically keep me away from pleasure, and we all have them, always making us a little more slaves to ourselves.
This element, of a mind that gives in because it is undisciplined, is the element that I intend to learn and improve (perhaps overcome one day) with DMT.
Therefore, as a form of stimulation, I began administering DMT in modest doses (700mg DMT per 2ml terpenes) for 3 days.
Initially, I started it as a test, to find out if using it on my Vaporesso Sky Solo would be viable. Which I concluded that yes, it surely was.
Each time, I vaped about 4 or 5 puffs and quickly felt an energy in my body, along with a force, pulling me to the other side. Sometimes I felt panic, but the feeling of prolonged peace throughout the day and greater performance at work (I concentrated more and I have ADHD) after using the substance made me use it perhaps once more on those days (thus making 2 sessions of 5 puffs for 3 days)
At the end of these 3 days, I spent another 3 or 4 days without using the substance, however I felt that the DMT was still in me.
I felt a new area of the brain that I had never felt before (I felt the awareness of existence, like we have the awareness of a finger or an arm or even a hand). And during those days, I was in some places (like the gym) and I felt that pre-DMT anxiety coming on, but little by little I controlled the feeling.
Deep peace invaded me during these days, being permeated by deep anxiety. The effect of DMT was undoubtedly long-lasting, although with few visual effects.
I then considered the aforementioned therapeutic dose, although without many visual impacts.
It's interesting to note that I live in an apartment, and in those days I started to be a little afraid of the height I was at (and which I was very used to up until that moment).
It is also necessary to mention that during those days I dreamed intensely: an average of 3 dreams per night, and on the first night I had a frightening dream that revealed a feeling that I had forgotten: I dreamed that I was in bed together with a girl that I was madly in love with. my adolescence, and among us was my mother. This girl then said to both of us: "good night". And this shook me considerably, as I had forgotten how repressive the mother figure had been in the construction of my sexual life, an obstacle between me and what I would like to achieve.
It was, without a shadow of a doubt, a very profound experience, but like many others I feared that I had "ruined my brain" in those 3 days after DMT, thinking that I would never go back to being what I was before.
It's been a few days since what happened: I'm not afraid of heights and I'm not dreaming as much (although I'm dreaming more than before). I feel more motivated for my work. I feel like DMT changed something in my brain, and that was a good thing.
I saw a video by Adam (Psyched Substance) that helped me a lot and helps me reflect on my condition in the psychedelic experience and which served as inspiration for this short text:
Thank you all
(mind)Set: anxious
(physical condition) Set: good
Setting (location): home
time of day: 10 am, daylight
recent drug use: coffee
last meal: 8 am, breakfast
PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 76 kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: novice
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT
Dose(s): Vaporesso (Sky solo) with 700mg DMT fot 2ml Jack Herer Terpenes
Method of administration: vaporized
EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:01
Duration: all day
First effects: A force in my body, very shy visual distortions, HIGH anxiety
Peak: T=0:01 - T= 0.05
Come down: it was very slow... i can't specify
Baseline:
Intensity (overall): 1 = Slightly
Evaluation / notes: 3 out of 5
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 2
Unplesantness: 3
Visual Intensity: 0.5
.
.
.
AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 2 points (3 days)
Afterglow: 0
REPORT
Owner of a restless and undisciplined mind, I sought DMT for more than visions or a profound experience, but an opportunity to grow mentally. Already in my first uses, I noticed not simply my cowardice or anxiety, but the uncontrolled mind, a ship that wants to travel in a certain direction in the midst of a storm, and that as soon as it touches the water, quickly regrets having entered it. As soon as I started seeing fractals or felt the strength coming, I despaired and tried at all costs to return to sobriety.
Thus, as already known by the wisest and most experienced, set and setting are important, however the element of the undisciplined mind (perhaps belonging to the set, but not completely) can bring a lot of pain and suffering in a psychedelic experience to the extent that a mind inclined always giving in to quick pleasure, and the torrent of thoughts that always invades us will not survive well in the powerful chaos of DMT's current of thoughts.
Our society trains us like this: short smartphone videos give us immediate dopamine spikes, however, unlike old photographs or films, they are not made to be remembered. Such videos should be administered like a drug, as they excite the most primal and immediate instincts: sex, curiosity, the longing for more. Our entire society is organized around rapid use, small and immediate enjoyment and disposal.
Thus, anyone who becomes addicted to masturbation quickly loses the great pleasure and peak of intense, non-compulsive sex. The more often we give in to immediate pleasure, the faster we exhaust the pleasure itself.
So, I believe that I have and I have some "crutches": compulsions and falls to immediate pleasure that paradoxically keep me away from pleasure, and we all have them, always making us a little more slaves to ourselves.
This element, of a mind that gives in because it is undisciplined, is the element that I intend to learn and improve (perhaps overcome one day) with DMT.
Therefore, as a form of stimulation, I began administering DMT in modest doses (700mg DMT per 2ml terpenes) for 3 days.
Initially, I started it as a test, to find out if using it on my Vaporesso Sky Solo would be viable. Which I concluded that yes, it surely was.
Each time, I vaped about 4 or 5 puffs and quickly felt an energy in my body, along with a force, pulling me to the other side. Sometimes I felt panic, but the feeling of prolonged peace throughout the day and greater performance at work (I concentrated more and I have ADHD) after using the substance made me use it perhaps once more on those days (thus making 2 sessions of 5 puffs for 3 days)
At the end of these 3 days, I spent another 3 or 4 days without using the substance, however I felt that the DMT was still in me.
I felt a new area of the brain that I had never felt before (I felt the awareness of existence, like we have the awareness of a finger or an arm or even a hand). And during those days, I was in some places (like the gym) and I felt that pre-DMT anxiety coming on, but little by little I controlled the feeling.
Deep peace invaded me during these days, being permeated by deep anxiety. The effect of DMT was undoubtedly long-lasting, although with few visual effects.
I then considered the aforementioned therapeutic dose, although without many visual impacts.
It's interesting to note that I live in an apartment, and in those days I started to be a little afraid of the height I was at (and which I was very used to up until that moment).
It is also necessary to mention that during those days I dreamed intensely: an average of 3 dreams per night, and on the first night I had a frightening dream that revealed a feeling that I had forgotten: I dreamed that I was in bed together with a girl that I was madly in love with. my adolescence, and among us was my mother. This girl then said to both of us: "good night". And this shook me considerably, as I had forgotten how repressive the mother figure had been in the construction of my sexual life, an obstacle between me and what I would like to achieve.
It was, without a shadow of a doubt, a very profound experience, but like many others I feared that I had "ruined my brain" in those 3 days after DMT, thinking that I would never go back to being what I was before.
It's been a few days since what happened: I'm not afraid of heights and I'm not dreaming as much (although I'm dreaming more than before). I feel more motivated for my work. I feel like DMT changed something in my brain, and that was a good thing.
I saw a video by Adam (Psyched Substance) that helped me a lot and helps me reflect on my condition in the psychedelic experience and which served as inspiration for this short text:
Thank you all