I wish I had some useful advice for dealing with fear. I used to be terrified as a kid, scared of groups of older kids, literally petrified at night (particularly after reading whitley Strieber's Communion).

Over time it feels like I just burnt out all my fear. Especially after facing the alienness of DMT - my fear of the unknown just seemed so silly. Now I worry that I am perhaps so emotionally aloof as to not let myself feel it.

Or perhaps I have just not been threatened by such things that I see, and time will tell if one of these things will scare me.

I had a number of "lessons" where I was shown images of decay and misshapen things. This after a number of lessons showing purity of form and beauty. At first I wondered if it could be some sign of displeasure, had I done something wrong? But it soon made sense through synchronicity that I was being shown that all of creation is divine, not just the pretty trees, flowers and sacred geometry - but everything: even that discarded garbage bag with its rotting contents spilled on a dirty street.

How could I then see anything as being "wrong", "unnatural" or scary - they are just expressions of underlying truths, part of the available range of experience and expression. What colours could we have in our life if there was only one shade of perfect.

How can you feel and appreciate absolute love and safety if you do not feel fear and despair. So which one of us has the issue? Perhaps I should just throw myself to the storm of experiences and allow myself to be tossed around into fear and also to ecstasy rather than standing still against the storm in a place of inner calm, just an observer. Not sure that I now know how.