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Rising Star
Hey everyone!
So I said I was gonna take a little break after tonight. And I will. But before, I want to briefly tell you how it went.
After a pretty stressful day, I finished what I was working on at around 9.
Shut down my phone and started my ritual (I guess there’s no need to describe it here once again).
After my mediation, I had an unexpected crisis of aerophagia. So I started to burp and figured I couldn’t smoke until I was done with the burping. (Every time I hear or write « the burping » I think of that crazy show called « The Jinx », anyone else saw that?)
When I thought it was over, I loaded 130mg in my bong.
I took a very long hit, as long as I could, but couldn’t finish the bowl (is this a quantity one is supposed to take in one hit?). As I was keeping the smoke in my lungs, I started to feel a very intense « something » on both sides of my head, right over my hears.
I started to go for another hit but quickly felt like I couldn’t and so I put down the bong and kept the little smoke I had inhaled in my lungs as much as I could.
No « spiritual ceremony » this time, but something going on over my head and then bam, the fractals, the veils, very clear and bright and beautiful.
I could hear « thoughts », but I’m not sure they were mine this time. I think the entities made fun of the concept of breaking through. Or more plausibly made fun of my desire to BT! I laughed with them. But there was this idea that breaking through doesn’t exist.
I felt so many things, so much presence, touching my face. At some point, the veils started to move away and appeared something like a « vortex » full of bright blue stars/light. Like incredibly beautiful. I think my eyes got wet.
At that point, I think an entity was showing this to me and another one was telling them « oh come on! don’t tease him! take him or don’t take him! » but on a very amused tone, like we were having fun and so I laughed, and then things started to slow down, shapes became gray, and I felt like opening my eyes and I was coming down.
I know this is still a very confused experience, compared to what I’ve been reading here but to me, it was magical and I came back with great joy and I feel grateful for all that.
Thank you all!
So I said I was gonna take a little break after tonight. And I will. But before, I want to briefly tell you how it went.
After a pretty stressful day, I finished what I was working on at around 9.
Shut down my phone and started my ritual (I guess there’s no need to describe it here once again).
After my mediation, I had an unexpected crisis of aerophagia. So I started to burp and figured I couldn’t smoke until I was done with the burping. (Every time I hear or write « the burping » I think of that crazy show called « The Jinx », anyone else saw that?)
When I thought it was over, I loaded 130mg in my bong.
I took a very long hit, as long as I could, but couldn’t finish the bowl (is this a quantity one is supposed to take in one hit?). As I was keeping the smoke in my lungs, I started to feel a very intense « something » on both sides of my head, right over my hears.
I started to go for another hit but quickly felt like I couldn’t and so I put down the bong and kept the little smoke I had inhaled in my lungs as much as I could.
No « spiritual ceremony » this time, but something going on over my head and then bam, the fractals, the veils, very clear and bright and beautiful.
I could hear « thoughts », but I’m not sure they were mine this time. I think the entities made fun of the concept of breaking through. Or more plausibly made fun of my desire to BT! I laughed with them. But there was this idea that breaking through doesn’t exist.
I felt so many things, so much presence, touching my face. At some point, the veils started to move away and appeared something like a « vortex » full of bright blue stars/light. Like incredibly beautiful. I think my eyes got wet.
At that point, I think an entity was showing this to me and another one was telling them « oh come on! don’t tease him! take him or don’t take him! » but on a very amused tone, like we were having fun and so I laughed, and then things started to slow down, shapes became gray, and I felt like opening my eyes and I was coming down.
I know this is still a very confused experience, compared to what I’ve been reading here but to me, it was magical and I came back with great joy and I feel grateful for all that.
Thank you all!
