brilliantlydim
Rising Star
I was planning to take some mushrooms for a while, and the window of opportunity finally presented itself. I have been slowly working my dose up, and was going to take 4.8g but when measuring it out I realized that I wasn't in a great mindset for the trip. I ended up measuring out just over 2.5g grams, an amount I knew I could handle if things turned dark.
Now I'm whether it happened because I was expecting it, or expected it because it was coming, or a combination of them both, my trip was the darkest of any that I have had.
I kept having visions of pools of bodies of people, reaching out to grab me. I would see an image of a beautiful woman, and then watch her face turn into a laughing devilish face. I got a very dark vibe the whole time. I just laid in the dark in my room letting everything come and go through me.
At one point a black infinite pool that could be described like an ocean of oil, was hovering right above me in front of my face. I had this thought beckoning me to stick my head into it, and I would then know everything. I'm not sure if was infinite knowledge, or a specific knowledge that was offered, but it was something far greater than I could currently fathom.
I sat there, with it in front of me contemplating if it was right. If it was a trick. If it was lure to do something wrong. Now when thinking back to it, my contemplations about the good and evil of technology come up. For some reason it makes me think about the story of adam and eve and the tree of knowledge and its fruit.
I was unable to make a decision to stick my head in or not, at which point my dog came running into the room and licking me, which completely snapped me back to "reality" After that I remember thinking that that I should have just stuck my head in, that information does not have morality and I could not do something "bad" by acquiring knowledge.
It seems during my psychedelic trips that I have a reoccurring scenario manifesting itself in different ways. I am brought to a point where if I go further I will be "crossing" some sort of line, level, barrier etc. But I encounter a hesitance and sometimes a fear to do so, in which point I am backed away from that point.
I know that with a large enough dose I can force myself to "breakthrough" barrier, but I know that I also could have done it if I didn't hold my self back at the doses that have already been at.
Now I'm whether it happened because I was expecting it, or expected it because it was coming, or a combination of them both, my trip was the darkest of any that I have had.
I kept having visions of pools of bodies of people, reaching out to grab me. I would see an image of a beautiful woman, and then watch her face turn into a laughing devilish face. I got a very dark vibe the whole time. I just laid in the dark in my room letting everything come and go through me.
At one point a black infinite pool that could be described like an ocean of oil, was hovering right above me in front of my face. I had this thought beckoning me to stick my head into it, and I would then know everything. I'm not sure if was infinite knowledge, or a specific knowledge that was offered, but it was something far greater than I could currently fathom.
I sat there, with it in front of me contemplating if it was right. If it was a trick. If it was lure to do something wrong. Now when thinking back to it, my contemplations about the good and evil of technology come up. For some reason it makes me think about the story of adam and eve and the tree of knowledge and its fruit.
I was unable to make a decision to stick my head in or not, at which point my dog came running into the room and licking me, which completely snapped me back to "reality" After that I remember thinking that that I should have just stuck my head in, that information does not have morality and I could not do something "bad" by acquiring knowledge.
It seems during my psychedelic trips that I have a reoccurring scenario manifesting itself in different ways. I am brought to a point where if I go further I will be "crossing" some sort of line, level, barrier etc. But I encounter a hesitance and sometimes a fear to do so, in which point I am backed away from that point.
I know that with a large enough dose I can force myself to "breakthrough" barrier, but I know that I also could have done it if I didn't hold my self back at the doses that have already been at.
