All Seeing Eyes

[Vernam]

The procedure:
3.6g Syrian Rue Seed (crushed it into powder with pestle and mortar, took about 30 minutes, then put in 4oz of pineapple juice), ~21g Hawaiian Acacia taken by vegetable capsules over the next 5 minutes. Stomach felt a bit uneasy/acidic so ate a piece of bread after which helped quite a bit.

The experience:
It took about an hour to kick in. I used a sleep mask to block out light and pulled up some shaman ayahuasca chants/music on youtube while someone else supervised me. The first 30 minutes was geometric patterns of all-seeing-eyes — thousands of them just watching me. I had an overwhelming sense that these eyes were sentient, and not actually just generated by my imagination. It seemed like I was intruding into their world, but they seemed used to people intruding. They were neither hostile nor friendly to me, I felt like they did look down on me though like I was not intelligent enough to understand their world.

My logical mind kept trying to fight what I was seeing and feeling, but when I would try to make sense of things it seemed to slightly irritate them so I just stopped and let the rollercoaster ride out. After about an hour I was able to pull myself back to reality long enough to get to the bathroom (diarrhea). In the bathroom is where I completely lost sense of reality, I spent about an hour having conversations with another entity inside my head. He was quite the prankster and kept doing things to make me laugh. I remember talking out loud to myself "why did you make me say that" "stop making me laugh like that" "you're making me sound crazy". I had completely lost control of my actions at this point, laughing was uncontrollable and my motor skills were nearly non-existent. It took an hour to pull myself back together enough to get back to the bed.

That's when it turned more serious and the entity seemed to want to teach me a lesson, I don't really know how to describe what happened next but I can really only explain it as being mind-raped. I don't even really remember what happened but I felt violated, completely vulnerable, and an overwhelming sense of sadness. The experience ended shortly after. I feel like I was mentally unprepared for the trip, and that I need to go back again with a more clear mind.

I have tried smoking DMT before a couple years ago, but this was a thousand times stronger, so I'd consider this my first steps in hyperspace.

 

[n0thing]

Nice, I have had something like that and the message of 'no act in existence goes unwatched'

 

[entheogenic-gnosis]

This reminds me of the report from TIHKAL on page 304 in the huasca vs. Ayahuasca chapter...

I left my body sitting on the toilet and was thrown into a universe where nothing seemed to make any sense. The CEVs were absolutely outstanding, freeforming, morphing from one complex scene to another. I went through huge sliding doors, traveled in space vehicles, saw incredibly complex and insane roads and highways, floating through a space I could never fully describe. Beings were present, grey munchkin like things with yellow stripes, and there were snake objects too. And especially eyes. Peeking out of every bend in the road, off every snake, under every door. They didn't frighten me, I was just curious to know what they all were doing, and what they all were seeing.

Erowid published a much more detailed version of the story which can be read here:

Huasca Combo (Syrian Rue & A. phlebophylla) - Erowid Exp - 'I Learned to Stop Reality and Love Psychedelics'

An Experience with Huasca Combo (Syrian Rue & A. phlebophylla). 'I Learned to Stop Reality and Love Psychedelics' by Dr. DMT

www.erowid.org

-eg

 

[WisdomTooth]

Awesome, I can't wait for my next journey.

Always be grateful for an experience, perceived good or bad it ultimately taught you something that only can make you wiser through experience and result in more positive outcomes in life.

I myself thought i wasn't mentally/emotionally prepared but then i learned from more experiences that the universe wouldn't of attracted this moment in time where i am actually doing it if i wasn't prepared in the first place. (simple laws of the universe) - If you will.

Meditation and spending more time in nature can help greatly when playing with psychedelics as you notice one loving or positive thought can change the whole experience and reality in a flash.

Enjoy your travels

 

[kerelsk]

What synchronicity- last night I was just reading an article in the defunct Entheogen Review titled Disembodied Eyes and Divine Vision, which was published Summer Solstice 2003 on page 41. The entirety of the Entheogen Review is available on archive.org.

Here's some quotes from the article

There is no arguing that the entheogenic mind state can sometimes cause a
psychonaut to feel as though he or she has the vantage point of a disembodied
eye. R. Gordon Wasson remarked of the bemushroomed state:

“What I was seeing was more clearly seen than anything I had seen before. At
last I was seeing with the eyes of the soul, not through the coarse lenses of my
natural eyes. ...It is a curious sensation: with the speed of thought you are
translated whereever you desire to be, and you are there, a disembodied eye,
poised in space, seeing, not seen, invisible, incorporeal” (Wasson 1980).

The disembodied eye (or flying eye) has appeared repeatedly in modern psychedelic artists’ works, including the art of John W. Allen, L.J. Altvater, Goodvision, Alex Grey, Naoto Hattori, Martina Hoffmann, Mati Klarwein, Carolyn Kleefeld, Stevee Postman, Brian Moriarty, Frederic Pardo, and many others. The disembodied eye is not always depicted hovering in the sky (with or without wings). It has also been frequently shown with flames surrounding it, and less commonly floating in water. In whatever form it appears, it is clearly a prevalent symbol. But how often is the actual image of a disembodied eye seen while one is on a psychedelic, and what are the reasons that this might appear?

I was spiraling in toward a white light. Although I [was] focused primarily on the light, swirling around me was a distinct pattern made of nothing but eyeballs—seemingly an infinite number of them. — D.M.

Personally, I have seen flaming eyes in visions with woodrose and psilocybin mushrooms. It seemed like the plant entity was looking at me, but also representing a sort of entheogenic awareness, that is the eye of consciousness within all sentient beings that is primal seeing. Consciousness represented to itself, and shown outwards simultaneously to another eye