MAGMA17
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I'm writing this post (also as a ritual to reinforce this idea) to say that after a 3 year break I feel it's the right time to try interacting with the unknown again.
It is not a simple decision as 3 years ago I had my first psychedelic experiences, and the second of these (a pharmahuasca experience) had an impact on me that led me to feel very damaged and seek help from a psychologist. I felt like I was truly back to "normal" after about 1 year.
My first psychedelic experience was with San Pedro and it was incredible. My third and last experience, again pharmahuasca, which I wanted to do immediately 2 days after the terrible second one (because I wanted to make “peace" with those plants) was also very beautiful but it did not at all erase the damage made by the previous. Obviously…
But as often happens, that bad experience ultimately changed me for the better. I absolutely don't regret having it.
But still, until a couple of months ago I never thought I would have a similar experience again...because the fear is very very high. But I feel like I need it. I feel like I need to improve myself, and I need a broader vision of life to do so. I need as a humble student to pray to open my eyes, because I know I can do better, but I can't right now.
At the end of this month I will have the unique opportunity for me to be able to be completely alone for 3 days. I'll let you know on this post!
It is not a simple decision as 3 years ago I had my first psychedelic experiences, and the second of these (a pharmahuasca experience) had an impact on me that led me to feel very damaged and seek help from a psychologist. I felt like I was truly back to "normal" after about 1 year.
My first psychedelic experience was with San Pedro and it was incredible. My third and last experience, again pharmahuasca, which I wanted to do immediately 2 days after the terrible second one (because I wanted to make “peace" with those plants) was also very beautiful but it did not at all erase the damage made by the previous. Obviously…
But as often happens, that bad experience ultimately changed me for the better. I absolutely don't regret having it.
But still, until a couple of months ago I never thought I would have a similar experience again...because the fear is very very high. But I feel like I need it. I feel like I need to improve myself, and I need a broader vision of life to do so. I need as a humble student to pray to open my eyes, because I know I can do better, but I can't right now.
At the end of this month I will have the unique opportunity for me to be able to be completely alone for 3 days. I'll let you know on this post!
