copperbubbles
Rising Star
As someone who likes words, one of my favorite part of doing psychedelics is attempting to describe the indescribable. These are effects that play a part in nearly every DMT trip I experience; I'd be super interested if anyone else has experienced them.
- Toward the beginning of the trip, my face usually feels like its different planes are slowly drifting apart like tectonic plates.
- At the end of a trip, with eyes open, I always have the sensation of light in my peripheral vision, like someone has opened a door behind me. These are genuine hallucinations, as in, I think they are real when they happen. But of course when I look there's nothing there.
- At moderate doses, my closed eye visuals almost invariably include being in a small room which is rotating slowly as my point of view slowly descends, never quite reaching the floor. Usually I'm also looking at some kind of sacred-feeling sculpture in the center of the room. I guess this is probably what people call "the waiting room"? I'd never call it that because to me it feels like a destination all its own!!
- When I'm overwhelmed, I often find myself counting or reciting the alphabet as some kind of defense mechanism, maybe trying to convince myself I'm still in control of my mind.
- Most of my experiences on moderate to high doses are extremely disorganized and senseless and therefore impossible to remember. Everything I've listed above is a tiny minority. Most of what occurs from moment to moment is a frantic montage of sights and sounds that do not cohere into anything conceivable, let alone describable. It's like TV static: so random that there's just not really anything to talk about. (But still beautiful and sacred! I treasure these experiences!) I compare this to people's stories of like, elaborate games played with known entities who have concrete lines of dialogue and I wonder if I'm even doing the same drug!!
