Holy f%*#!
Just got back.
Intense.
Did 40 minutes of yoga to kind of center myself, find some physical and mental peace, before I went in (funny that, I haven't done yoga in over a year but it seemed like the right thing to do).
It was beautiful and overwhelming...lots of dark colors and things understood but inexplicable, then or now. Finally met these entities everyone keeps talking about...well didn't exactly meet them, but they were there, moving around me and through me, even leading me on at times...I get the McKenna thing, fairies and whatnot. So powerful...at times I felt like I was dealing with something I maybe shouldn't be...not substances but realms...and not bad, but powerful and possibly out of my depth. For anyone there just thinking about this, or like me, just now dipping their feet into the shallow end of the pool, I would echo what people here and on other forums keep saying...go carefully and with respect.
I feel like this is more like visiting a place than experiencing an effect...that it's the same place I've visited a few times now, and that it's still waiting out there to return to, that I'm simply back here again. Part of me (what little of me remained along for the ride) kept wondering if this was somewhere I was truly ready to go.
About the Me thing...Is this what people mean by integration? I felt like I needed to hold on, to myself, to whatever part of this world I could remember, to anything...but that it's possible to completely let go, forget myself, loose myself in hyperspace...its a scary notion. And yet I can't help feeling that there is so much more to see and experience if I do. Would welcome any advice or insight from more experienced psychonauts out there who might be reading this...
Just got back.
Intense.
Did 40 minutes of yoga to kind of center myself, find some physical and mental peace, before I went in (funny that, I haven't done yoga in over a year but it seemed like the right thing to do).
It was beautiful and overwhelming...lots of dark colors and things understood but inexplicable, then or now. Finally met these entities everyone keeps talking about...well didn't exactly meet them, but they were there, moving around me and through me, even leading me on at times...I get the McKenna thing, fairies and whatnot. So powerful...at times I felt like I was dealing with something I maybe shouldn't be...not substances but realms...and not bad, but powerful and possibly out of my depth. For anyone there just thinking about this, or like me, just now dipping their feet into the shallow end of the pool, I would echo what people here and on other forums keep saying...go carefully and with respect.
I feel like this is more like visiting a place than experiencing an effect...that it's the same place I've visited a few times now, and that it's still waiting out there to return to, that I'm simply back here again. Part of me (what little of me remained along for the ride) kept wondering if this was somewhere I was truly ready to go.
About the Me thing...Is this what people mean by integration? I felt like I needed to hold on, to myself, to whatever part of this world I could remember, to anything...but that it's possible to completely let go, forget myself, loose myself in hyperspace...its a scary notion. And yet I can't help feeling that there is so much more to see and experience if I do. Would welcome any advice or insight from more experienced psychonauts out there who might be reading this...
