Apologies to the nexus

[giver of will]

A few weeks ago, I got a little too drunk and decided it would be a good idea to snort 100 mgs of dmt. I instantly panicked, went straight to this site, and posted how "horrible" this drug was. I then came down and snorted the rest of my dmt (200 mgs) again, to try and understand what i just experienced. I again had a bad trip, but i never broke through. I got really close but i remember seeing this vision of an entity opening my head and it was talking to me. Though I couldn't understand what it was trying to get across, I instantly flashed back to a HORRIFIC trip I had last march on the stuff. Both times I came out of the trip with an instinct to flush the rest of my dmt down the toilet and warn anyone of its demonic nature. I know the thread was locked because myself and other nexus members were going back and forth about the stupidity of snorting that high of a dosage (the post). I guess it was a very intense experience for me and hearing people insult me about it made me get very upset and angry. I now know that I have been disrespecting DMT. I always have to get drunk to be able to get myself in the mindset to not be anxious on the come up. I understand now that what i said about dmt was offensive to a lot of you nexus members who know as well as I do that DMT is medicine for the soul. I hope to acquire some next month, not sure when ill actually try it, but this time I will be sure to respect the molecule. Again, I am deeply sorry if I came across as arrogant or stubborn to any of you. I have love for everyone on the nexus.

 

[corpus callosum]

Sounds like youve derived some good things from your horrific experience; thank goodness for the passage of a little time and the wonders of a little introspection.

Ive just looked at the thread in question and some replies you received were a little terse but I honestly believe it was not meant to offend you.Sometimes a more direct tone is needed rather than the touchy-feely 'there, there' approach but the key thing is that youve acquired a more considered approach to your spice.

I thank you for posting this and Im happy that youve 'recovered'.

 

[smokerx]

We all learn from our mistakes, welcome back my friend

 

[VisualAnemia]

Both times I came out of the trip with an instinct to flush the rest of my dmt down the toilet and warn anyone of its demonic nature

You were obviously not well versed with the effects of DMT in the first place, hence feeling the need to warn people "of its demonic nature".

I found this to be quite funny though "with an instinct to flush the rest of my dmt down the toilet", Way back I once did this with some RC fum. and I've never looked back on it since, far to many side effects, however did you not flush your DMT down the toilet?

It makes me think of the stereotypical alcoholic; Emotional rollercoaster, he drinks, feels regret and runs to the sink to pour it out, only to regret doing so when its emptied.

Alcohol is mostly really bad to mix with any other drugs, IMO it's a bad drug in itself.

 

[Purges]

No hard feelings from my end Welcome back.