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Rising Star
I got fascinated by astral projection/lucid dreaming in the last couple of months, although I've been more drawn towards AP. I've attempted it a couple of times, but never had any success. I always fell asleep and woke up hours later. Until this morning. Initially, I set up my alarm clock at 3 am, because I had some work to do and wanted to finish the day early. Also, I could use this chance to try again some astral projection.
I woke up at 3, but postponed the alarm for 5am, and went back to sleep, as I was pretty tired. Fast forward 2 hours, and I get out of the bed, start my laptop and attempt some work. I realize I'm too weak for that at this early hour, so I put on some Seinfeld. After about an hour, I'm slowly drifting towards sleep. So I pause the show and lay on my back, allowing myself to relax more and more with each breath.
This time I didn't feel like I was tired though, and my only intention was to astral project. I stated my purpose - to get out of my body and travel to the other room through a wall to visit my girlfriend sleeping, and also to remember what I will be dreaming - and remembered these key points several times during the 45-50 minutes preceding the sleep. Thoughts were still present, but it was very easy to not get caught in them. After a while, some visual hallucinations started: I was seeing different patterns, shadows and lights which I associated with neural discharges. A couple of minutes later, as I fell asleep and then woke up multiple times, I entered the sleep paralysis phase.
Normally, when that happens, I instantly panic and want to wake up. But this time, I kept my calm, and remembered that I wanted to astral project, so I will continue with it. I was feeling like I was "transforming", there was this sensation like my whole body is pulled apart in different directions, and a mild pain was experienced (well, maybe just actually the sensation of pain, which was just plain weird - not quite unpleasant, but weird). After this "transformation" process came and go a few times, I finally got "there". The transition was so smooth I couldn't even tell where I was or how I got there.
At this point, my purpose for being here didn't came to mind; I am curious though, so I "look around". Looking doesn't really do much justice to the actual experience, but I'll use this word for the sake of convenience and lack of a better word. I recognize the room that I am in, it's very familiar (it was my actual current living room, but slightly different). The room is very bright, as if it's bathed in direct sun, but this is weird, because my apartment is at the lowest level, and there's usually not much light coming in, because of the outside trees. Anyway, I move on to looking at this huge ficus like plant that's sitting in the middle of my living room, which I just noticed. I don't know where this came from, I don't have such a plant in my house; however, I could swear that it looked a lot like a ficus my parents had while I was a child. Except it was like 10x bigger. This got my attention, I knew this wasn't the ordinary reality I was used to, and I knew that I reached a magical place.
At this point, I "move" towards a door, not remembering to go through the wall. I wanted to see my girlfriend and check her reaction. However, as I'm moving towards the bedroom, I'm surprised to see that she's in the bathroom (in reality, she was sleeping in the bedroom). She looked at me, but for some reason instead of speaking to her, it seemed more logical to me to grab an empty bottle and to kick it against the desk I have in the living room, to get her attention (I can't remember hearing any sounds, though). I think I was sensing that I'm drawn back to my body, because the next thing I know is my arms and legs slowly landing on the couch, as if I was standing on my back this whole time and was transported through thin air and gently landed back on the bed. I vividly recall my arms and legs looking like some sort of ethereal objects, and I again felt the sleep paralysis for a few seconds before regaining my physical senses and waking up. I checked the room, and there was indeed a bottle of water identical to the one in my dream, but this one was full!
I tried to continue, but I was so excited and decided to give it another try the next day. I've noticed that I've woken up in the exact same position before falling asleep, not even the blanket I was covered in was disturbed!
I also wanted to ask you if the sleep paralysis phase is usually this "painful"? It's hard to describe because it wasn't pain per say that I experienced, but it was like my bones were twisting and moving inside my arms and legs. Not painful, but simply weird and totally out of place! Haha
Also, is it normal to jump in and out of sleep paralysis? Or is the transition going to become smoother once I get the hang of it better?
Thanks for taking the time to read this lengthy post and I hope I haven't bored you too much.
I woke up at 3, but postponed the alarm for 5am, and went back to sleep, as I was pretty tired. Fast forward 2 hours, and I get out of the bed, start my laptop and attempt some work. I realize I'm too weak for that at this early hour, so I put on some Seinfeld. After about an hour, I'm slowly drifting towards sleep. So I pause the show and lay on my back, allowing myself to relax more and more with each breath.
This time I didn't feel like I was tired though, and my only intention was to astral project. I stated my purpose - to get out of my body and travel to the other room through a wall to visit my girlfriend sleeping, and also to remember what I will be dreaming - and remembered these key points several times during the 45-50 minutes preceding the sleep. Thoughts were still present, but it was very easy to not get caught in them. After a while, some visual hallucinations started: I was seeing different patterns, shadows and lights which I associated with neural discharges. A couple of minutes later, as I fell asleep and then woke up multiple times, I entered the sleep paralysis phase.
Normally, when that happens, I instantly panic and want to wake up. But this time, I kept my calm, and remembered that I wanted to astral project, so I will continue with it. I was feeling like I was "transforming", there was this sensation like my whole body is pulled apart in different directions, and a mild pain was experienced (well, maybe just actually the sensation of pain, which was just plain weird - not quite unpleasant, but weird). After this "transformation" process came and go a few times, I finally got "there". The transition was so smooth I couldn't even tell where I was or how I got there.
At this point, my purpose for being here didn't came to mind; I am curious though, so I "look around". Looking doesn't really do much justice to the actual experience, but I'll use this word for the sake of convenience and lack of a better word. I recognize the room that I am in, it's very familiar (it was my actual current living room, but slightly different). The room is very bright, as if it's bathed in direct sun, but this is weird, because my apartment is at the lowest level, and there's usually not much light coming in, because of the outside trees. Anyway, I move on to looking at this huge ficus like plant that's sitting in the middle of my living room, which I just noticed. I don't know where this came from, I don't have such a plant in my house; however, I could swear that it looked a lot like a ficus my parents had while I was a child. Except it was like 10x bigger. This got my attention, I knew this wasn't the ordinary reality I was used to, and I knew that I reached a magical place.
At this point, I "move" towards a door, not remembering to go through the wall. I wanted to see my girlfriend and check her reaction. However, as I'm moving towards the bedroom, I'm surprised to see that she's in the bathroom (in reality, she was sleeping in the bedroom). She looked at me, but for some reason instead of speaking to her, it seemed more logical to me to grab an empty bottle and to kick it against the desk I have in the living room, to get her attention (I can't remember hearing any sounds, though). I think I was sensing that I'm drawn back to my body, because the next thing I know is my arms and legs slowly landing on the couch, as if I was standing on my back this whole time and was transported through thin air and gently landed back on the bed. I vividly recall my arms and legs looking like some sort of ethereal objects, and I again felt the sleep paralysis for a few seconds before regaining my physical senses and waking up. I checked the room, and there was indeed a bottle of water identical to the one in my dream, but this one was full!
I tried to continue, but I was so excited and decided to give it another try the next day. I've noticed that I've woken up in the exact same position before falling asleep, not even the blanket I was covered in was disturbed!
I also wanted to ask you if the sleep paralysis phase is usually this "painful"? It's hard to describe because it wasn't pain per say that I experienced, but it was like my bones were twisting and moving inside my arms and legs. Not painful, but simply weird and totally out of place! Haha
Also, is it normal to jump in and out of sleep paralysis? Or is the transition going to become smoother once I get the hang of it better?
Thanks for taking the time to read this lengthy post and I hope I haven't bored you too much.