I am slowly working up my dosage, getting acquainted with the feeling/flow.
Last thursday I had my second attempt, to reach hyperspace. the sunday before I tried to reach it, a lot of beautiful visuals, but nothing too spectacular. I noticed that I was high on energy for a couple of days, all in my upper chakra's. I tried to lower it by consciously grounding.
On thursday I had a meeting with some friends. Having built a the machine, the dosage keeps growing because there are small white bits that recrystallize when the machine cools. We took a little bit of syrian rue, about half a gram, just to boost the experience a little bit.
I keep getting better in using the machine. The first time last thursday I had some very beautiful closed eye visuals. I like to close my eyes, so I can focus on what the spirit molecule brings me instead of my visual percepts being distorted.
The room I was in was built with fractals with a big one in the center. The fractals were having a lot of faces, welcoming me very friendly.
An hour later I loaded up the machine once more. I took some good good tokes. I was still in my body, because I could feel my skin tingling, as if all my senses had gone to hypersensitive. I was humming and breathing consciously while moving through a room that looked strangely familiar, was it from the previous hit? I don't know.
I had the sensation that I was in the room with a female divine entity, there was something sitting in lotus, but she was morphing all the time, shining. A bit later a went into one of the fractals that created the wall, as if I had chosen a door to go in and she shows me something that I cannot remember, I cannot grasp it, as after a balloon of nitrous oxygene.
Upon entering the door I was tsunamied with a ridiculous amount of Love. So much love, unconditional love.
When I came back all I could say was wow. wow.
I came down around sunday afternoon, I have been on a pink cloud for a couple of days. If this being exists mind-independently (what I cannot prove, of course), it would give life so much more meaning, knowing that there is this pool of unconditional love I can always come to bathe. I wouldn't mind going back there.
The experience was more dream-like than trip like. It was not distinguishable from a normal experience (except for being not normal
). It was as if I really experienced being showed something.
wow
Last thursday I had my second attempt, to reach hyperspace. the sunday before I tried to reach it, a lot of beautiful visuals, but nothing too spectacular. I noticed that I was high on energy for a couple of days, all in my upper chakra's. I tried to lower it by consciously grounding.
On thursday I had a meeting with some friends. Having built a the machine, the dosage keeps growing because there are small white bits that recrystallize when the machine cools. We took a little bit of syrian rue, about half a gram, just to boost the experience a little bit.
I keep getting better in using the machine. The first time last thursday I had some very beautiful closed eye visuals. I like to close my eyes, so I can focus on what the spirit molecule brings me instead of my visual percepts being distorted.
The room I was in was built with fractals with a big one in the center. The fractals were having a lot of faces, welcoming me very friendly.
An hour later I loaded up the machine once more. I took some good good tokes. I was still in my body, because I could feel my skin tingling, as if all my senses had gone to hypersensitive. I was humming and breathing consciously while moving through a room that looked strangely familiar, was it from the previous hit? I don't know.
I had the sensation that I was in the room with a female divine entity, there was something sitting in lotus, but she was morphing all the time, shining. A bit later a went into one of the fractals that created the wall, as if I had chosen a door to go in and she shows me something that I cannot remember, I cannot grasp it, as after a balloon of nitrous oxygene.
Upon entering the door I was tsunamied with a ridiculous amount of Love. So much love, unconditional love.
When I came back all I could say was wow. wow.
I came down around sunday afternoon, I have been on a pink cloud for a couple of days. If this being exists mind-independently (what I cannot prove, of course), it would give life so much more meaning, knowing that there is this pool of unconditional love I can always come to bathe. I wouldn't mind going back there.
The experience was more dream-like than trip like. It was not distinguishable from a normal experience (except for being not normal
). It was as if I really experienced being showed something. wow
