Not sure what to think of this. It will certainly be very difficult to explain.
Last night Mrs P and I dosed some AL-LAD for the first time. What a beautiful and fascinating molecule it is. :thumb_up: After an allergy test, I consumed a 150u dose, followed by 2 more half doses over the next hour or so, totalling 300u. Mrs P did similar with 225u. I did my usual pre-trip routine of having a wash, smudging the house and setting intention. I feel like I should write two reports for this experience, because the nitrous segments were of a different nature. I think I'll put the AL-Lad segments in the AL-LAD thread.
Over the course of the first four or five hours, we consumed quite a few balloons of nitrous oxide and some bumps of tobacco snuff. This is where things got bizarre and very real.
At first I just thought there were some weird interaction that made a weird body load. Felt like something was pulling at my clothes trying to get my attention. I need to emphasize that this was a physical feeling, like a cheeky child pulling at me and running away before I could catch them in the act. I looked around, and I was in the midst of a group of morphing sprite entities. They were very crude in their manner and quite pushy. It felt like I was part of an internet meme with all sorts of crude jokes within jokes within jokes within jokes... This kept repeating.
This one particular character would do some particularly confusing gag then the others would sneak in, attaching something 'squelchy' feeling to my hand while my attention was elsewhere and then 'squelching' me round the face gesturing, projecting "Aaaah! Joke's on you!!!", then would gesture to its self (did get a masculine vibe) and say"Aaaaah! This m*thaf*cka right here!" with a cheesy, self satisfied manner - imagine you are the butt of a joke of a group of bullies, once this had looped several times I started to see their game and started making a concerted effort to re-centre myself and not give them any more of my attention. It was hard not to get very angry at them and at one point I was projecting F*** YOU, which they found hilarious.
Then a more powerful entity introduced its self. I got the impression of something connected with death, yet it made a friendly introduction and seemed familiar, it communicated not to worry about those other guys, but then got serious and projected "You need to watch yourself". He left and the smaller entities came back for one last round of teasing and looping before the nitrous wore off.
Now what is very weird about this is that when I re-centred enough, Mrs P was asking what was going on? Apparently she was watching me in hysterics, then getting very annoyed, then back round again. Upon giving a very rough approximation of what had just occurred she told me she had felt some sort of presence that kept making her second guess herself, but she didn't have direct interaction, and so was shrugging it off until she saw me.
I spent the rest of the journey meditating, projecting a protective boundary and using the time to start integrating the madness that had just taken place. Mrs. P was very helpful, asking questions, helping me tease out some of the details. I came to several important and helpful realisations, one being that I need to end any usage of nitrous oxide besides for whipping cream, another about how to interact with troublesome influences in that space, and life in general, the others being somewhat more personal.
The remainder of the trip was very intricate and beautiful, illustrating some very important patterns in nature, life, re-visiting and contextualising previous trips on various substances with an underlying theme:
"Everything is a matter of perspective"
I haven't had this sort of contact on any other substance, bar DMT, but those entities seem to be of a higher vibration and generally much nicer to be around. These were certainly shadowy figures, and while not necessarily malevolent, they certainly took pleasure in both amusing me and trying to ruffle my feathers.
I will be re-visiting AL-LAD again for sure at a similar or higher dose and am happy to say farewell to those balloons. I think AL-LAD and DMT would jive very well together.
Last night Mrs P and I dosed some AL-LAD for the first time. What a beautiful and fascinating molecule it is. :thumb_up: After an allergy test, I consumed a 150u dose, followed by 2 more half doses over the next hour or so, totalling 300u. Mrs P did similar with 225u. I did my usual pre-trip routine of having a wash, smudging the house and setting intention. I feel like I should write two reports for this experience, because the nitrous segments were of a different nature. I think I'll put the AL-Lad segments in the AL-LAD thread.
Over the course of the first four or five hours, we consumed quite a few balloons of nitrous oxide and some bumps of tobacco snuff. This is where things got bizarre and very real.
At first I just thought there were some weird interaction that made a weird body load. Felt like something was pulling at my clothes trying to get my attention. I need to emphasize that this was a physical feeling, like a cheeky child pulling at me and running away before I could catch them in the act. I looked around, and I was in the midst of a group of morphing sprite entities. They were very crude in their manner and quite pushy. It felt like I was part of an internet meme with all sorts of crude jokes within jokes within jokes within jokes... This kept repeating.
This one particular character would do some particularly confusing gag then the others would sneak in, attaching something 'squelchy' feeling to my hand while my attention was elsewhere and then 'squelching' me round the face gesturing, projecting "Aaaah! Joke's on you!!!", then would gesture to its self (did get a masculine vibe) and say"Aaaaah! This m*thaf*cka right here!" with a cheesy, self satisfied manner - imagine you are the butt of a joke of a group of bullies, once this had looped several times I started to see their game and started making a concerted effort to re-centre myself and not give them any more of my attention. It was hard not to get very angry at them and at one point I was projecting F*** YOU, which they found hilarious.
Then a more powerful entity introduced its self. I got the impression of something connected with death, yet it made a friendly introduction and seemed familiar, it communicated not to worry about those other guys, but then got serious and projected "You need to watch yourself". He left and the smaller entities came back for one last round of teasing and looping before the nitrous wore off.
Now what is very weird about this is that when I re-centred enough, Mrs P was asking what was going on? Apparently she was watching me in hysterics, then getting very annoyed, then back round again. Upon giving a very rough approximation of what had just occurred she told me she had felt some sort of presence that kept making her second guess herself, but she didn't have direct interaction, and so was shrugging it off until she saw me.
I spent the rest of the journey meditating, projecting a protective boundary and using the time to start integrating the madness that had just taken place. Mrs. P was very helpful, asking questions, helping me tease out some of the details. I came to several important and helpful realisations, one being that I need to end any usage of nitrous oxide besides for whipping cream, another about how to interact with troublesome influences in that space, and life in general, the others being somewhat more personal.
The remainder of the trip was very intricate and beautiful, illustrating some very important patterns in nature, life, re-visiting and contextualising previous trips on various substances with an underlying theme:
"Everything is a matter of perspective"
I haven't had this sort of contact on any other substance, bar DMT, but those entities seem to be of a higher vibration and generally much nicer to be around. These were certainly shadowy figures, and while not necessarily malevolent, they certainly took pleasure in both amusing me and trying to ruffle my feathers.
I will be re-visiting AL-LAD again for sure at a similar or higher dose and am happy to say farewell to those balloons. I think AL-LAD and DMT would jive very well together.
Intensity (overall): (0-4) 3
Evaluation / notes:
OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 3.5
Implesantness: (0-4) 3
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 3
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: (0-4 ; what type of impleasantness ; duration) 2 some flickering grotesque imagery and restlessness in bed afterwards that persisted until about 10 hrs after dosing
Afterglow: (0-4 ; what type of positive effects ; duration) 3, feel very balanced today and a bit wiser.