Thank you for the welcoming comments.
I have been introduced to DMT only a couple of times. My very first experience was profound to say the least. That is my core reason for wanting to experience more. Though I was apprehensive and very unsure of what to expect, as my host didn't want to share too much as it may influence or add expectations. Eventually after wasting probably an emotional amount of his yield, I finally gave in to trusting him and adventuresd. Even still, I was hesitant and apprehensive. Fortunately enough came through that it woke me up and created curiosity. That was several years ago now. Recently I procured a cartridge and attempted to discover the other side again and perhaps even more so. Unfortunately, it was less of an experience to write home about. Left me saddened honestly.
So now I'm here. The same person that introduced me to DMT recommended this forum for knowledge and clarity and potential references to become a builder and perhaps a guide myself (so to speak).