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I have gazed into the eyes of insanity and returne
I've been messing w DMT for some years now. I've long lost count of the number of trips from vaped dmt, changa, pharma, etc. Every now and then a trip really stands out as something different and special. Last night was one such trip.
I have been pretty depressed for a good while and decided to revisit using harmalas. I had some b caapi leaf so made tea yesterday mid day and again right before bed. Just a reasonable handful of leaf boiled for a bit. I was really amazed at how large of an effect the tea had on me. It was mood lifting but it was also a very pleasant head high just by itself. Kinda floaty feeling. Like my head was 2x the normal size and weighted 1/2 as much as normal.
When I went to bed I wanted to do my favorite thing.... listen to amazing music, smoke some weed and dmt. So I did.... I'm not sure how many others get the shivers once in a while on DMT/weed combo but I do regularly. The shakes feel like body temp plummets and uncontrolled fever shakes. I'm a bit used to it so it doesn't scare me but this time was very different. I simply could not stay still... but in a very controlled, very precise way. As I laid flat on my back my arms started dancing out in front of me. Impossibly precise to the music.... insanely fast vibrations like a twitch shiver but perfectly controlled to the tempo of the music. At first the movements were double or triple timed to the beat but would shift perfectly to 1:1 timing, back to double time, to half time, etc. It was beautiful! The visuals, were nothing short of bliss! It was almost like being a conductor but instead of just music the movements were creating a fractal artistic world.... hmmm not creating but part of... in perfect sync.
I feel like so many internal walls fell last night in regards to my body's ability to move to music. There was absolutely no self image / judgement in the movements and it was both effortless and perfect. I really hope this experience is repeatable!
I have been pretty depressed for a good while and decided to revisit using harmalas. I had some b caapi leaf so made tea yesterday mid day and again right before bed. Just a reasonable handful of leaf boiled for a bit. I was really amazed at how large of an effect the tea had on me. It was mood lifting but it was also a very pleasant head high just by itself. Kinda floaty feeling. Like my head was 2x the normal size and weighted 1/2 as much as normal.
When I went to bed I wanted to do my favorite thing.... listen to amazing music, smoke some weed and dmt. So I did.... I'm not sure how many others get the shivers once in a while on DMT/weed combo but I do regularly. The shakes feel like body temp plummets and uncontrolled fever shakes. I'm a bit used to it so it doesn't scare me but this time was very different. I simply could not stay still... but in a very controlled, very precise way. As I laid flat on my back my arms started dancing out in front of me. Impossibly precise to the music.... insanely fast vibrations like a twitch shiver but perfectly controlled to the tempo of the music. At first the movements were double or triple timed to the beat but would shift perfectly to 1:1 timing, back to double time, to half time, etc. It was beautiful! The visuals, were nothing short of bliss! It was almost like being a conductor but instead of just music the movements were creating a fractal artistic world.... hmmm not creating but part of... in perfect sync.
I feel like so many internal walls fell last night in regards to my body's ability to move to music. There was absolutely no self image / judgement in the movements and it was both effortless and perfect. I really hope this experience is repeatable!