Ok guys, I have no idea how to start writing this, hmm. Dreamer mentioned that the leaves look alot like salvia, so I realized yeah they do. So I got out the salvia bag (just dried leaves, not extract) and started to compare, it does look alot like it but the color tint is slightly different. And the stupid fuck that I am , I had to make sure by smoking a bit of the salvia.
I haven't smoked salvia since a year, and now I remember why. I used to smoke alot of salvia extracts during one period, until something happened, don't know how to explain it, but I swore to never touch salvia again.
I just smoked a little bit, and it ALL came rushing back to me like a goddamn tsunami. The music became the "countdown to the apocalypse". I collapsed and my kitchen transformed into a kingdom, and I met the same king and queen and other inhabitants that I've met countless times. (dont mind too much about the mental images of kings or kingdoms, those are just the words i can use) The thing is that salvia isn't a traditional psychedelic, there's no brighter colors or feelings of awe, it just transforms everything, utterly. And they're laughing, they're laughing because they can put their kingdom anywhere they want, and make it seem like it's always been there. They're laughing because they know we always keep coming back to it, whether it's by accident or on purpose. They absolutely loath the physical realm and our disgusting bodies, and always have to make mean jokes about it. I really hate them and love them and I have no idea who they are. But what they're telling me is clear , and I don't like it one bit.
It feels like I just reopened that part of my insanity that I've kept locked for a year, it's not really insanity but that word is similar to it, meaning that it's not compatible with this physical realm. I have no idea how to deal with this right now,
Yeah this is completely off-topic , but I don't really care about the topic currently, I mean i really appreciate all the responses and probably will get back to that, but right now I just wanna know how the hell is that possible to get thrown straight into another dimension by smoking a bit of the leaves. Is this the famous "reverse-tolerance" of salvia at play, taken to the max?
WTF is going on.