cannabis induced anxiety and DMT

[jotag]

Hi everyone! I am new to the forum and I'm about to do my first extraction, but I feel like I need to talk about this first. About 6 years ago when I was 16 I smoked weed for the first time. Took this huge bong hit, the weed was pretty shitty, and I was very, very stupid. I was waiting for something to happen, as all my friends were laughing and having a good time. I started to notice my heart beats going really fast like I had just ran a mile, but I was just sitting in a couch. Then my nose and limbs started tingling. I had this very unpleasent sensation in my chest, and it was a horrible feeling. That escalated to a panic attack, a bit of depersonalization, and the next hour was pure TERROR. The worst part is that I was not having any bad thoughts or paranoia, the anxiety was irrational. It was like the weed simply turned on the "panic switch" in my brain. I have tried smoking weed after that, sometimes it was fine, sometimes the anxiety started kicking in but in general I was able to handle the situation and avoid panic. The thing is, I am fascinated about psychedelics, I live in Brazil and I have really easy access to safe ayahuasca ceremonies, but since that first episode with cannabis, trying something like acid, shrooms, ayahuasca, or anything that can make you trip for 8+ hours seems unlikely. That's why I got interested in pure DMT, it lasts only a few minutes. So here's my question: has anyone had a bad experience on weed like I had but is able to enjoy psychedelics?

 

[xss27]

So I tried acid yesterday for the first time, I did 1/2 tab of what was supposedly 120ug. I was at a friend's house, the day was beautiful, setting was perfect. I'm not going to describe the experience, I'll just list the things I felt. I cut the piece of paper in half and put it under my tongue at about 2:10pm. The effects kicked in at about 3:30pm and and lasted until around 12am. It was basicaly:
jitteriness
anxiety
anguish
purge, like I had something inside my chest that I needed to expel - this led to an urge to cry or vomit, but I couldn't do neither
shivers
body tremors
depression
chest tightness
tingling
cold
No euphoria, no happiness, no empathy, no visuals, no colors, no patterns, no walls breathing. Just unpleasant feelings.

Maybe it was duff acid perhaps, but assuming it wasn't this doesn't sound like a 'normal' physiological response to me and beyond just psychological knots of anxiety. I mean you say the setting was perfect, I would have thought at least one ray of happiness would have pierced your mind at some point and spiralled out into a beautiful moment. Maybe your reaction signifies physical illness at the moment (low energy) or maybe even neurologically you're wired a bit differently.. it's not like everyones brain is identical - bodies are found to have abnormalities post-mortem that affected the person through life to which they were unaware at the time. Not saying this it the case, but it's a possibility beyond just a psychological malady.